I'm not talking about when I visualize him or actually focusing my thoughts on our inevitable future- I'm talking about all the other times. We live in the same town and I think about running into him at the store or going for coffee and of coarse I never do. Yesterday we both had events at the same venue, I was upstairs he was downstairs. I was sure I was going to run into him. I wore my cutest outfit. I did my hair. I was vibrating like crazy. And, I saw all his friend but not him. After, some of my friends and I decided to get a drink in town and we were walking towards the bar and I heard someone honk. And, was him. I had assumed once we left the Hall I wouldn't see him. I had moved on and let go of the notion. But, the universe is funny that way.

So how do I stop thinking of him everyone second. How do I open myself up to receiving what the universe is trying to give me. I almost feel like I'm sabotaging myself.