My exgf broke up with me a few months ago and I didn't acdept or handle the breakup well. I was in a tough mental place. I was dealing with paranoia and a lot of stress. I pushed her away further and further after the breakup by not respecting her need for space. She eventually blocked me. I emailed her though and kept emailing her. I was struggling with mental issues and was desperate to get her back so I was updating her on life changes. I lost 30lbs, realized a prescription drug was causing my mental issues and paranoia putting a strain on our relationship. I had paranoid thoughts about her cheating that I know aren't true but it was hard to control the thoughts. I've read several relationship books and took udemy courses.

I'm confident if I had another chance we will be great tigether. She filed a police complaint against me for harrassment. I think most people would give up but I was really good to her most of the time and we were a great couple that makes a lot of sense. I just haven't given hher any space since the breakup or time to process and miss me. She is really stubborn and it's going to be tough to get her back but I'm going to try usinf LOA and continue improving myself. I think she is scared of me right now and thinks I'm a stalker. I'm a really nice guy though and I've never said anything mean to her or called her names. I've never raised my voice to her in person or hit her or ever really gotten mad. I was just struggling with stress and I made life changes to manage stress so I'm hoping she'll understand that. She was really good to me
I dated a lot of women but she was the first that I could see myself marrying. She was also excited about me and would tell her friend and me that she can see herself having kids with me and me being a great father.

Which videos or Veronica should I watch?

I have prayers and a visualization that I do nightly.
It may take time and a lot of work plus a miracle but this thread will be a success story.