Thanks , Berryluv. I guess, I was visualizing a different outcome. The way the break up happened, he cut me off and I did very well considering. I visualized seeing him again. I tried to focus on getting myself back and my life back. But, I just wonder, is there a fine line between being delusional and believing. I want to believe but the signs are against me and he is non responsive. How do you work with that. We had a very long term relationship and committed. This is one of the reasons why it hurts more. I want to believe and I want to be happy. Thank you for your kind words again. You made me cry but only because I felt understood. What are some suggestions for what I need to do next? I need some direction. I still want a response. 

Hi momo    You have made a good decision to come onto this forum    Most of us are here to manifest lost love back.  You are not unbalanced or delusional   The heart wants what the heart wants.  As you read the threads here you will see  where many people have gotten love back.  
Veronica suggests that we don't call or text     and yes  Berryluv is absolutely right  work on loving you    

I suggest  to get a call or txt from him       Watch / Listen to Veronica's videos on youtube                        
There are many books suggested by people here on the forum   go to the library or buy and read any that resonate in you     study LOA
Read the threads posted here    there is a ton of ideas and information 
You can manifest him back    in a perfect way !!
 

You are manifesting!!!!   you stumbled across Oprah's video   the one when she wanted the role in the movie?    I did too a bit back   see the Universe sent you that sign!!   I believe if you want your love back  and you do the work on yourself and your vibrations     all of a sudden   you will get a call    Bless you too   keep us posted   I am going to the library today    sometimes  I will put in an intention that I find something  helpful   that is how I found the book "The Secret"   before I knew about LOA   and was manifesting without knowing it 

momo wrote:

I guess there is a difference between letting go and still loving. I have to book the secret and I think I will start reading it again. Any specific books I should look into barbidoll? You are so positive and I am grateful for that. 

It has taken me a while to get here   I was profoundly depressed for a couple of years   wanted to die   completely hopeless    I stumbled across   The Secret    I personally like all of Rhonda's books   Have you read  The Power?  That helped me immensely get to a more positive place.  Abraham / Hicks   are all valuable too   I also found the earlier works of  Wayne Dyer  like the Power of Intention and Real Magic to be helpful     When I read I cherry pick ideas  using what resonates with me    so many LOA writers negate getting a specific person  or a reconcilation  but pearls of wisdom are there        To be honest  Cherished's writings to me are extremely helpful    Right now I am reading E Squared by Pam Grout a  brilliant training manual 

I found Veronica on YouTube a few months ago  and was amazed  for the first time someone was saying  Yes you can get him back    so I made an intention to the Universe to show me that a reconcilation can happen    and all of a sudden  people were telling me they were reconciling with lost love left and right   right up to my best friend  who lost her love decades ago  and he  came back   out of nowhere    they are married now !!    

So read   and keep that positive vibe going   I know we are all going to be successful