Hi people,

I'm new here, and I look forward to talking with you guys.

In 2018 I had a massive spiritual awakening. Since then, I've been so much more open, I don't hide away from everyone anymore. And I used to be a cutter/burner. Last time I cut was a year ago. Last time I used the burning was about 3-4 months ago. It's been tough, but I must keep a new mindset; one of love for myself, because for years now I had been abusing myself, inside and out.

By the way I'm 34 (almost 35) years old. I've been in counseling since I was about 15-16 years old and now I'm 34. We work with a lot of things; overcoming depression and anxiety, self-talk so not to self-injure. I have to be on medication for all this, even PTSD and Major Depressive Disorder with Psychosis. I've been diagnosed with everything in the manual, but I think this last diagnosis is correct.

About self-love, I believe that hearing those words by different people almost every day is a sign in itself. I hated myself for so long, and it only made me sicker (not just mentally sick, but physically too). I'd also left other social media for a few months here, because I needed some space. My friends and family understand.

I had heard "love yourself" just about everywhere. So today is the day that I try my best to put away the dishes and check the laundry here soon too. I hate to put it all on my mom. Yes, I live with my mom. I am not married and never have been. I'd like to be, someday. I sorta hope it's sooner than later, but it is what it is.

Well the lesson I learned from that relationship is not to be a pushover and let others come in your home and try to rearrange your whole life, and not to let people talk me down, I must stand up for myself because no one can hold my hand the whole time.

Anyway, thank you for reading this. I look forward to meeting new people here. It seems like a great place to be, here.

Alex