I have been in a weird place for almost a week, as if I was having a bad trip without taking any drugs. But, I'm back! I feel like myself again and I'm back with renewed enthusiasm and joy! :D :D :D

I'm not going to post every day because it is too much focus on the process. Instead, I will post when it feels natural and when there is something to say.

I started my meditations again. And I started doing Wendi's remote seduction which is on youtube. I tried it once last week and it was powerful! The music is so inspiring for connecting with the feelings. I prefer to think of it as sending them love, than seduction.

I got halfway through and sort of questioned if I was doing it right then was out of the state, and a similar thing happened tonight, mainly because I wasn't fully relaxed. But it's okay because next time I know to just let it happen. It was a really enjoyable experience. I felt more connected to myself and my SP

Last edited by Aquilina (9/15/2018 8:30 pm)

pocketfullofsunshine wrote:

You are one hundred percent good enough and sometimes your person may be quiet but it does not mean they aren't thinking about you the universe loves you and working for you in the background-sometimes we dont see it but it doesn't mean it is not working

Thank you for your support and kind words! :D 

This part is true. I remember the other day, my SP mentioned something that I had told him before, which at the time, he had never acknowledged, so I thought he just wasn't interested in what I had to say and I was projecting that insecurity on him as well, especially as this was earlier on, not long after he left, and I was finding it more difficult. Now I know, he was taking it in at the time. 

Another thing I remembered is that forcing conversation is like saying "I don't think I'm good enough for you to speak to me of your own accord so I'm going to keep making conversation because I'm scared it's the only we can communicate". 

And I remembered something a wise man once said...

"Patience communicates confidence and desirability". 

In terms of all that stuff, I'm doing fine at the moment, just wanted to share it in case it helps anyone else that is feeling insecure about this type of thing. I mean I still sometimes have insecure feelings but it's getting A LOT better. 

I'm going to keep your tips in mind and remember to take some deep breaths if anything comes up... 

In fact, I just did that. I have some feelings to resolve tonight so there was no better time than the present. As Anthony Robbins once said, "a true decision is followed up by action". 

PS. If anyone knows how to edit the title of this thread, please let me know! I want to make it more positive! I even checked the main boardhost website but it didn't have any information so specific, and I haven't seen an edit option anywhere when I'm posting or when I look at the section where it displays my own posts.

Last edited by Aquilina (9/16/2018 8:13 pm)

Went to the beach today and enjoyed it. I've been reading Elizabeth Daniels' book, "Manifesting Love". I also made some lists about things I can do to improve my life in general. Things I can do right now that cost me nothing or not much. 

Tried to visualize but wasn't really happening, so I decided to enjoy the sun and the sea instead. I floated in the sea and it was great after I packed my things to go home I stood with my feet in the water looking at the horizon for a while. I was praising myself for my achievements of living where I had dreamed of since childhood and was thanking the Universe for the sea and feeling grateful. 

I felt gratitude and love in my heart and was feeling really good about myself. As I was leaving the beach, I almost began to feel like he was there with me. I have seen some people say that one way to act as if is to imagine they are there with you during the day. I had been doing that here and there as it's easier than visualization and sort of keeps it going throughout the day. Well, I really felt his energy in real-time. I wasn't feeling a memory of him, I was feeling HIM. It reminded me of the interconnectedness between all people and how we really do silently send signals to people, broadcasting our energy out through the cosmos, the signal of love being the most powerful of them all. 

I had some other proof of this connectedness the other day, with a friend. I believed in it anyway, but these examples are good for changing the doubtful parts of our mind into belief.

I had looked at the whispering technique that Agnes talks about and asked a friend if I could test something telepathic out on him, as we have spoken a lot about telepathy and had a few experiences before but not in such specific ways as this technique allows for.

He was happy for me to do it. Of course I didn't tell him how it was going to work, but I decided on a word that he says occasionally that I was going to ask him to tell me. Did the technique and forgot about it. The next week he said the word and I thought hmmm, could be coincidence, if he'd said it the same night maybe I'd be convinced. I told him about it and said, what shall I ask you to say next time. I thought to myself, I will choose something more random, so I thought hmmm I'll ask him to say "frog", and/or send the frog emoji on whatsapp. Thought no more about it at the time. 

A couple of hours later he says "frog" then sends the frog emoji...and I hadn't even done the technique!!! I told him I couldn't believe what had happened and explained. We were so surprised. 

Anyway, after I left the beach, feeling high, I randomly had thoughts about competition and got a bit anxious. It's not a thing that I usually give much attention to, the occasional thought might come up and I'd ignore it. This stuck around for longer so I got home and watched Veronica's video about it again and I feel better. Maybe I'd freaked out because the high was higher than I have been feeling recently and I was scared it wouldn't last. But...

I get how it works and I'm going to make my life the best possible and have so much fun, manifest my other desires, keep focusing on connecting with my heart energy, and in no time he'll be picking up on these vibes.

Last edited by Aquilina (9/17/2018 2:34 pm)

Mirror technique - another version.

Anyone remember that scene in The Secret where a man is standing in front of the mirror and imagines himself in a nice suit etc?

Well I did that, I stood in front of the mirror and closed my eyes and for some reason it was much easier to imagine myself as my ideal form and live FROM it compared to if I'm sitting or lying down. I also felt a rush of energy after doing that and was on a bit of a high.

I had decided before that I was going to emulate the behaviour of my ideal self, as one technique to help me to become it. I made a list of all the things my ideal self would do. And it's not about changing who I am, but it's about getting rid of the habits and negative feelings that had blocked me from being who I am and loving myself. It's not about imagining being different, just feeling different. Another example of what was on that list, was to mimic the body language that I would have as my ideal self.

An interesting thing happened yesterday. I had been having insecure thoughts, then asked myself, "Would my ideal self be worried about this?" The answer of course was, "No of course not, we don't have these types of thoughts". And to my surprise, the thoughts literally just stopped completely. This hasn't happened before. I didn't have to justify or explain to myself why I shouldn't think them or tell myself why I am better than that, they just stopped when I reframed my perspective so that it was aligned with the new self.

I am starting Veronica's breakthrough course tomorrow. I have accepted less than happiness as normality for far too long and I want this extra help to make sure that I stay motivated, and stick it out this time and change things for good instead of returning to comfortable mediocrity and accepting less than I deserve and less than I'm capable of. Sometimes when the pain has gone, we sink back into indifference, slip back into living life by the outdated subconscious programs, and accept the same state of being as before. Not this time. This is it! This time I'm going to do it!!!

Last edited by Aquilina (9/19/2018 10:23 am)

YES!!! I remembered the thing that made me stop visualizing all those years ago and decided to really give it a go, immerse myself, fully experience it. I fell asleep (it wasn't time for bed), but anyway will see what happens and it will get easier and easier.