Me and my SP are still very close, we've had a romantic relationship but he told me a few months ago that he can't fully commit to a relationship at the moment. He's always left it very open which does give me a lot of help. But I know that I created this, due to my insecure feelings when we were together. 

He still puts me first a lot, we still have good conversations on the phone and he's done a few things that prove to me that I'm the person he first thinks of when things come up.

However, I still can't get my insecurities out of my mind. I feel good when I speak to him and for a few days after I feel secure and stable, and generally happy about a lot of things, but when it goes for over a week without hearing from him I get panicky and get thoughts of him with other women.

This is something that I know isn't true - I know he's working on himself right now and he's absolutely not a player. But I do struggle to get these thoughts out of my mind, then I give myself an even harder time because I worry my thoughts are creating reality!

Does anyone have any tips for dealing with these thoughts and being more positive? I've manifested a few little things, like texts and he's said random things, so I know these works, I just find it hard to actually lift myself completely out of these thoughts. I have diagnosed anxiety - which I am getting treatment for - so I do find it hard.