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coping from bullying issues from childhood
hey guys,
I obviously do not want your pity. I want to go out of it.
When I was 12 to 14 I was heavily bullied in school. Before, I was a self-confident outgoing girl that had many friends and a cirlce of close friends that consisisted til Kindergarten. I was excluded from my entire class, I had no friends for 2 years and I was even insulted by other kids that I had no friends. It was so terrible that I dont even remember it anymore except for some flashbacks. But the FEELING accomponies me daily. Its an underlying feeling of being unworthy, being judged, being not good enough.
When I was 14 I changed my school and fortunately everything went really good at my new school: I directly made new friends in my class, I had a new circle of friends ! huraay! it was wonderful. But then I tried to compensate by dating the hot guy that was part of my friend circle. when he broke up when i was 16 my circle of friends was gone and I stood there- alone again. I made new friends, girls, that excluded me again. This time because I "catch too much attention by the guys ". In 11th grade up to my a-level I had at least one girlfriend I thought would be my friend but after the a-level she basically broke off contact. In my school I hadnt had a good stand, the fact that in 1oth grade to my a.level I was basically left without friends (except for one) made me feel really unworthy again up to now.
After my a-level at the driving school I made friends with a REALLY wonderful and positive girl and I am sooo greatful for our friendship! I am happy to have one good friend!
But, due to my bullying issue and the fact that I pushed friends away again I have limiting beliefs and an overall bad feeling 
I know many many people who really got out of that and attracted many friends after bullying issues.
But I personally feel like I cant get out of it.
Almost daily I feel those bad feelings of my 12-year-old-me. I feel like I dont have enough friends, I am not confident enough, I am not good enough.
I do hooponopono whenever a thought of my bullying issue comes up, and I do self-love daily.
It just feels like a dark layer on top of my shining, confident, happy personality.
Hope someone can help me or has had experiences like that and got out of it!
Love, 
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- happygirl97
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Re: coping from bullying issues from childhood
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Because the last time I had thoughts like "I am not good enough because I dont have enough friends. People will judge me." I attracted an exact reflection: My mum told me that my ex overheard my other ex (lol) telling people how "I didnt have any friends at school" (even though thats a LIE. I had one really close friend at that time -.- )
I really want to get out of this feeling
She believed she could, so she did.
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Thread Starter- Cynthia
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Re: coping from bullying issues from childhood
I have had a lot of help with these sorts of issues by using some very good self hypnosis recordings from a few reputable companies I know of.
Ask me about them if you're interested.
Last edited by Cynthia (4/05/2018 3:35 pm)
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Re: coping from bullying issues from childhood
Those things happened to me too through school and university and in the very early days of work. Eventually it all resolved itself.
As I got older, I began to see that I had been desperate to prove I fitted in and could be part of a group regardless of who these people were. That I was worthy of being chosen. These were all girls and on reflection not very nice people. Then I gradually became aware that I had to do the choosing too and naturally gravitated towards genuine people who were happy to be my friends and vice versa. These people have been in my life for many years. I then too began to see guys as people and friends rather than primarily potential boyfriends.
It just happened as a natural consequence of growing up. Unsuitable people just fell away and don't come into my arena in the social sense. I'm in my 30s now and have the best circle of friends ever of both sexes. Whether this was law of attraction, judge for yourselves.
Last edited by PrettyFlamingo (4/06/2018 1:50 am)
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