I am letting go today.Not just of my fears and worries but the Man ( undocumented in the USA) I am in love with. We've been apart nearly10 months (Dec 19th) and haven't spoken ( both numbers blocked) since August. I am tired of holding onto someone that doesn't want me nor has shown any care to check in with my life. I've done all I can to " as act IF". I've changed my last name to his last name ( I am using windows 10),kiss every time I arrived home from my workplace and Kiss him goodnight before I sleep.THis is only a few, Besides my parents are still mad at him for standing me up in june when We were suppose to spend the day at his family's house ( he resides with his cousin and her husband and children).  They don't even care for him at all. Sometimes, You must give up trying to give it your all when one doesn't want to hear from you( remember he has both numbers blocked). Ivan pushed me away for the 2nd time. I am not sad. nor it isn't my loss. thansksfor all the support Fam!
p.s. I've also  told a few people at my new job  that I was engaged. ( Ivan wants to be married, So do I, But that won't happened).

Last edited by bblc (12/04/2015 4:21 pm)