The 'I would do anything to get my ex back' challenge leads always to only one outcome: never ever getting your ex back.
I can give you the answer to all of your questions. Ready? You create your own reality. That's it. There is nothing other creating in your reality. She doesn't have her personal reasons to do stuff. She reacts to what you are sending out to her. Right now that's a pretty ugly vibe of "I need you more than anything else on this world" and that will never get her back. You wasting your time with doing this challenge. You need to center yourself first and I mean that literally. You center yourself by making you the center of your life. Contacting her won't change anything, because she still responds only to what you believe and expect. So you don't work it on the outside, but on the inside. I promise you that you will never get anywhere with talking things out. Let go of the past. You created it and there were some shitty parts in it..so what? Create a better version of it. And until you did that let her out of the picture. It's not about her. It's about you and your perception of her. Nothing to change but that.

metrosuperstar wrote:

Thanks for your reply. I guess my hopelessness stems from the belief that she "already revisited" and that she would not revisit again. Also that what she chooses to focus on (resenting me vs having a good time when we hang out) is out of my hands. I don't know if coaching with Veronica would help.

 
It isn't out of your hands unless you believe that. She is behaving the way she is toward you because that is what you are projecting out and expecting of her.

Pretty much she is you pushed out. She is doing nothing more than responding to the energy you are projecting outwards. So I said this before that I read something really interesting before about perspective. So let’s use her as an example you will have your perspective of her and then someone else will have an entirely different perspective of her, thus resulting in you both having different experiences with her.

It’s really on YOU when it comes to her. So first be aware of that and take responsibility for creating this scenario. Once you change the way you look at something, the thing you look at will change. But you really need to grasp the concept that YOU created this and start working within yourself and realize outside reality is nothing more than an echoe of your inner reality.