Hi everyone,

So it's been a little over a year since the breakup and I've been on a bit of a roller coaster. During that time I've managed to manifest alot of things! My job, my car, holidays etc a month or so ago I decided that it was time I was going to try and date someone new! I still love my ex and what to be with him more than anything but in the mean time I'm working on myself worth and love.

Long story short I've been speaking to this guy for about a month now and I really like him so far! I'm meeting him for the first time tonight so I'm super nervous. This all seems good until last night when I found out that my exes best friend invited me to their 21st birthday! You have to understand that I haven't spoken or seen any of them much since the breakup including my ex! The last time we spoke which was over a year ago he was very cold towards me so I don't believe he would have initiated the invite! That being said I'm not sure why I'm invited! I looked to see who was going that I knew and my ex put down a maybe so I'm not even sure he will go anyway! I've just left it blank. But the question I ask is why? Like out of all the times a possible meeting with my ex could happen why now?

I'd normally be jumping for joy if I knew there was a slight chance I would see him! Even the fact that I was invited by his friends is weird! Like I could never imagine my friends inviting him anywhere lol. But I'm feeling so sick and worried about it because I'm frightened and I realised how much I want to be with him and now I don't even feel like going on this date tonight! I'm so confused and down about everything when I've been letting go and doing so well!

Does anyone have any advice for me? It would be very much appreciated