Hello,
In April of 2017, I met who I believe is the man of my dreams. Lets call him Brady. After hanging out for a couple of weeks, he told me that he wanted to be friends before we took the relationship any further. He said that way he can build trust in me and vice versa. I was heartbroken. I truly believed that he had romantic feelings for me and I was confused why he wanted to take 10 steps backward. We talked on and off for the whole summer. I really worked on myself and was in a separate relationship which ultimately didn't last. Throughout the summer I really focused on loving myself, but still thought about Brady often. We decided it was best if we limited communication because I still had strong feelings for him and he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend. When school started up again, I saw Brady the first day back. He was moving his buddy into my apartment building. I didn't say anything to him and a few minutes later got a text from him saying "wow you look good." I asked him how his summer had been and went on with my day. The next night, he called me crying. He told me that he felt his life was out of control and he wanted to get on the right path again. He asked me to come over and I did... probably a mistake. We sat there for four hours while he cried into my shoulder. I finally told him that I was going to go back home and he asked me to stay. I said ok, but that I would sleep on the floor. He said no, please sleep in my bed with me... it's okay. I agreed and when I woke in the morning, hurried out before he was awake. 
Since this night, things have been really back and forth between us. He told me that he wanted space to make changes in his life and that he couldn't commit to a relationship with me until he knew what he wanted in life. I understand where he is coming from, but I am having a hard time letting go. He also told me that he is transferring colleges. I am going abroad for the semester, but was looking forward to seeing him when I came back. Now I won't. 
I really believe he is the one for me, but that we aren't aligned at this point in time. I struggle with blocking his number and never talking to him again, and trying to be civil and be there as a friend. I know I need to let go, but it's hard. Any suggestions would be appreciated....

Last edited by oliviaxoxo (11/06/2017 3:18 pm)