I know that it may seem very heartbreaking and painful at this moment but remember nothing is permanent. You can still change things around and you can still have love in your life with or without this person. If you are suicidal please remember that there is still hope, talk to a person close to you, seek help. Years ago I was with a guy who I thought was the one. He was the most wonderful man I ever dated for sure. One day he broke up with me and crushed me. I knew it was coming but it still shocked me. Turned out he already had another girl lined up and a few weeks later they both tragically died in a motorcycle accident and I never got closure. That was a downward spiral for me and I had dark days but I'm glad that I pulled through and went on because I got to experience so many more wonderful and some painful relationships but it gave me strength knowing that life is full of possibilities and if you just take a deep breath and give yourself a break you will get to experience all of that too. If you ever need advice or someone to talk to I am here and willing to listen. My ex boyfriend suffers from bipolar disorder and I've been there for him through his depressive and suicidal episodes and he is now doing very well and happy. Don't give up, there is always another day and there is always hope!

Almost all of us here have gone through similar phases in life, if not worse. But remember, it was just a phase and a lot of us are out of it for the better. Better could be we are back with the ex or have found ourselves in the process.
What I’ve realised is to do any of this you first need to be in a good space yourself. That happens only with Self love. So, just do the same. Be happy with yourself first...raise your vibes. Things will get better once that happens.
All the best!

I am really sorry that you are feeling the way you do. I understand how scary depression and suicidal thoughts and/or tendencies can be, I've been there and I promise you that you're not alone and in time things do start to pick up.

It doesn't feel right giving you tips on how to manifest the love back right now because it seems that you need to focus on getting better first. If you're feeling low about yourself and her the situation won't improve. That doesn't mean it never will though. Self-love is a really important part of manifesting and something that is too often overlooked. Please reach out to someone when you feel low.