Cynthia wrote:

zionthecomedian wrote:

Cynthia wrote:

Good for you for leaving that job. The way they have treated you there must be illegal. I've had some soul destroying jobs in my life, but that one is unbelievable. Since you don't have anything you're passionate about, I think that's a very good idea you've got about listing what you want to feel and gain from a job because you have to know what you want before you can get it.and be as clear as possible about it, as with anything.  It's a shame you don't have anything you feel passionate about, but who knows, maybe you'll find the job that creates that feeling in you?

Thank you, it's a risk, me jumping ship like that but I don't know. I just had this urge to quit... but when I spoke about it I was very shocked at how calm I was. But thank you, I'm hoping by writing down what I want it'll help me gain a job that gives me those feelings. I think I'm more frustrated at the fact I have nothing I am passionate about to be honest and I'm just adding pressure to myself by wanting to find my passion asap so I can aim for a career I would be good at... but maybe I am looking at everything wrong. Maybe I should just be working on myself atm and see what lines up. What do you think?

 
I think by leaving that job you realised that you deserved a lot better than that and that you needed to put yourself and your health and wellbeing first and let them know you weren't going to tolerate being treated like that any more, whether you actually said that to them or not. That's a great step in the right direction, valuing yourself more highly than perhaps you've been doing. I know that you're obviously older now and different, but did you ever dream of doing anything when you grew up when you were a child? One thing you could do if you're worried about finances and feel that you have to get a job soon to be able to pay your bills is to take a job that feels like the best choice for now and look at it as a temporary thing to do whilst you're looking for your passion so you could take the pressure off yourself. It would be a lot easier to find your passion if you weren't feeling pressurised like it was a matter of urgency. You could do temping in the meantime, but I used to do a lot of temping myself years ago, and there wasn't always work available and some of the jobs were what nobody in the company wanted to do, really boring, tedious things. Working on yourself is always a positive thing, so you could do that at the same time unless you aren't in a rush to get another job. You've definitely taken a giant leap in the right direction by leaving that horrible job. Perhaps there are some classes available where you could try out other things you've never learnt before and see how you liked them. You could try stepping out of your comfort zone, even just for fun. You might find something you really love that had never crossed your mind before.

To be honest, I have looked at my finances and funding and if I budget myself really well per week I could go without a job for a year and still be able to pay for my insurance and MOT for my car next year so I'm okay with my finance situation at the moment. I am waiting for the hospital to get back to me on the start date for my placement and I guess Christmas time I might just take a break.
I mean something is bound to come up when I least expect it, both jobs I had previously came up when I least expected or when I was on the brink of giving up. It was just strange, I said I wanted to leave before Christmas this year for whatever reason because last Christmas I had the flu so badly, I couldn't even speak cause my throat was so sore and I still had to go to work, wasn't allowed a sick day off... and I deal with food and I had to talk to customers. No one gave a **** if I was unwell, was like a money making machine. :') But you are right, I realised I deserve 100times better than what that shitty place could offer me.
I just hope the LOA can help push me in the right direction. I have been doing my research every now and then when I am calm and collected. When my anxiety kicks in I do something else, then come back to it later.