Long post sorry guys but worth the read

Well it doesn't seem anyone has read what I have been writing anyway but I'll just write it. Lol. Yes I had a fear spiral. It was bad for an hr or 2 . I had seen something that hurt my feelings a bit. I have been riding high for a couple of days things are going really well. When I saw this I started to get really upset and kept saying I have done all the work ( this was a mix between my guy and friends). But then I started to feel better tell myself affirmations about me that everything works out for me, that I surrender. Then thought I m just assuming certain things negative things I'm doing that to myself with the small bit of info I had.This thought then led to me thinking I don't want to rely on other people ( friends and my guy ) to be the soul source of my happiness. This thought then led to me saying enjoy things and asked myself  what do I love to do. Now I'm at home and the only meditation I want to do is Agnes vivarelli self love/let go meditation.  My point on all this is. Well I have several points. First one being we are human no one is perfect , no one is a robot . We are all gonna have negative moments fear spirals etc. BUT Things don't manifest right away , if you watched the secret you you should remember this cause they say that. You have time to change your thoughts! Don't let that one negative moment defined you. My next point is don't let anything be the source of your happiness besides you. Things truly start falling in line when you are happy with just you. I'm still working on this bit but I really have started to grasp that. I also want to feel truly happy ,with no motive. What I mean is when I was having my fear spiral today , after awhile I kept thinking man I just want to feel better just be at peace. I didn't think ooooo being at peace an happy will bring me what I want sooner. No I truly just wanted and still want to feel happy. I still do. Also I have really been truly practicing self love . I say affirmations all the time. I love saying them and it's a great way to try and defer negative thoughts also saying I surrender helps too. Sure sometimes the fear and doubt can be too much but keep at it . I surrender really helped me today.

I would like to add that the last week has been truly awesome. I have gotten some pretty good stuff and felt pretty good too. I had some doubts but I say affirmations while I experience them and it helps change my thoughts even if I still feel anxious I say gen until they change. Buuut anyway this week I have managed to manifest my guy asking me for help with something last Saturday. I love him and I want to help him so I did. I would like to add that I could have used this opportunity for more contact but I didn't . I sent him everything he needed and of course here if he needs anymore help but I sent him a lot to help him learn on his own. Again could have used this for more contact a way in etc. but that is not what unconditional love is. I want him to succeed and I love him so happy to help. Plus I want pure contact based off love not me manipulating anything. That's also not trusting they universe either. I then saw him later that night and he was joking with me laughing. Sat next to me during a game . It was just nice. He then called to make sure I got to my car ok. Now this isn't anything unusable, all our friends when someone leaves make sure someone got home ok . For me the added bonus was that he was he one checking on me. Also this week felt really confident and through my doubts still said affirmations. Yesterday he liked my profile picture. He rarely does . I also was driving somewhere and took a wrong exit ( darn gps) and at my stop, I noticed an advertisement for the place he works at annnnnd he building next to it the name on it was his last name! So some good stuff . I'm gonna keep going .

Anyway sorry for the long post I hope you guys read my points above the second part was just me going on my signs lol . Most important things guys to remember are
1) don't let any material things or anyone be the source of your happiness!!!!
2) keep going even after a fear spiral , remember you can change things! Positive thoughts out weigh negative , keep the momentum! Do not discourage yourself for feeling bad we are not robots!!
3) love unconditionally don't manipulate situations with your person or whatever. That is not right shoes desperation which means you lack self love and shows lack of trust in the universe

Hope you guys understand my babble!

Last edited by Selfloveiskey (8/20/2017 5:50 pm)