I am moving to the country with my now fiancé, but my family is mad about that. They said I am selfish and don't care about the family because one of them is dying and I cannot help. However they have been unappreciative of what I do and excuse my depression for laziness. I been so stressed out to the point I am forgetting things I normally don't. I want to live and not be caged in. My intuition says to follow, but my mind is being clouded with listening to my family. I am growing angry staying there or in the city in general.

They say there won't be any opportunity where I go and that I got nowhere here, so I definitely won't get anywhere over there. But my intuition says I need to go, it's time for change and transformation and I don't want my family holding me back anymore. I feel like we won't speak if I go, but I hope one day they will see I am not a bad person. Apart of loving yourself is not holding yourself back, is putting yourself first. Society is scared to Love themselves because then they get viewed as being selfish. I cry as I type this because I am kinda nervous about leaving, what terms I would be on with my family. What should I do?