HappyManifesting wrote:

You ought to know that even if you don't see progress, there still is progress. It's like planting a seedling. You don't see the progress until the plant comes out of the soil, but you know it is working. You know that the seedling will become a plant. You are sure about it. You don't dig up and see after every few days if it's growing because you know it will never grow if you keep digging up. It will only damage the plant. So you let it take its time and you know it will become a beautiful plant.
I hope you get it.

Thank you so much. It makes sense. How much have I set myself back?

I guess time and distance is scaring me... But I know a part of him misses me. I know that... Those 8 months of constantly talking did mean something to him. And i will make him believe in us. I will.

Just... Send me a message soon. because sometimes I do feel discouraged.

Then i remember how he looked like when we met, and how happy we were and I pull myself back on track, as much as I can.

HappyManifesting wrote:

You have not set yourself back. Not until you believe you have. Yes, you messed it up a little but know this, it's never too messed up to get back on track.
Also, keeping a track of time will only create resistance. It does not matter how long it takes as long as it is on its way.
Actually, it is taking this long because you are not in the vibrational alignment of it. Your lover is in the vortex waiting for you to get into the vortex with him. Remember, it is not manifested because you are not ready for it yet. As soon as you get ready to experience it, it will manifest into your reality.

How do i get ready for it? Are there ways yo align my vibration?

There are certain times of the days when Im extremely happy and i feel as though he is back.. But there are times when Im happy but hollow too..

I'm so sorry for troubling you. And thankyou so much for the encouragement.

HappyManifesting wrote:

http://www.mustsparkjoy.com/30-MIRE/
Read this. It will help a lot. And you are not troubling me. This forum is for this very reason. To help each other.

I woke up having someone telling me she is sorry for the indifference I get from him.

And then I went into full breakdown mode. I can turn this around, right?

Indifference is so scary. I also realised that I'm having my moodswing. That may explain why the breakdown..

HappyManifesting wrote:

It looks like you are in a really bad shape. I would suggest you do some self love meditations and please, for the love of God, do not listen to what others say. When I broke up with my guy, everybody except my mother told me he is never coming back. I never listened to them. And guess what happened? He came back, not once but twice. He always came back. So no matter what people say, believe what makes YOU happy. And do what makes YOU feel good.

Haha yes. He isnt even my boyfriend in the first place. I didn't get the chance to even start it with him. But I always believe I'll have the chance when the time comes, when it's no longer long distance.

Yup I do self love meditation everyday. I just changed my phone background to remind myself that it'll all be ok too.

I swear it's hormones... He better be missing me and want to see me.

I'm so sorry I must sound like a stubborn kid but yes.. i'm having a bad few days.

Do you have your story anywhere that I can read?