YesIWILL wrote:

Thanks TLoL, I really apprecaite that. You don't klnow how much that message means to me, thank you for making me feel welcomed and loved.

So I just sent her one last text, and I hope maybe it'll make her feel something. I won't be texting her again until she texts me:

"I feel very overwehlemed with, I guess, the lack of what we had, if that makes sense, that I can't help but try to bring it back by messaging you. I know you don't want to hear from me... And I guess I just hope with every next text, that maybe... just maybe, you'll respond and that we'd start talking again as if nothing had happened. It's my biggest desire in life, but I realize in doing so I'm just bugging you... I'll leave you alone. I'm so sorry. I just want you to be happy. Even if that means I'm not. I do hope that we'll be back to talking soon. Just... I really hope you're happy okay? That's enough for me. Love you."

I know I broke some "no contact, LoA 'don't say that' rules" with what was stated in the message, but I put my heart into it. She's seen me as selfish through her rose-colored glasses, so I hope that view will fix itself in time.  Either way I want her to be happy. I just hope she'll realize how much I mean to her before it's too late. I think that was very sweet, what I wrote to her. Anyway... I won't be mesasgin her again. She's not responding anyway, so there's no point. I've tried getting my point across. Just hope she'll come around. That's all I really want

You're very welcome! And it will fix itself. Promised. Trust the universe. Everything will be alright I promise you. Your number one priority  should be on your happiness and everything else will fall into place through the law of attraction. If you feel good, the universe MUST give you more to feel good about. Many want the manifestation first, and then they believe they can be happy. But the loa doesn't work like that. You must create the environment for your manifestation. You are so worthy of happiness and love and joy. You can have be or do anything.

YesIWILL wrote:

Can't you see how badly I'm already hurting? Can't you see that you're responding simply to be a jerk??! Why?! Why the **** do you do something like that to someone who's already hurting so ******* much??!


I'm going to sleep. I'm so ******* depressed. You clearly DO NOT KNOW how badly words can hurt. You're a HORRIBLE person.

Dude I do know how it is, and so does everyone else on this forum. I've been there and got the damn tshirt.One day I woke up and was tired of being a sad ass little *****, so I did something about it.  You can try to guilt trip me all you want.. it's not gonna work. I'm telling you the truth and you don't like it. That's your problem not mine.

iinikkii wrote:

YesIWILL wrote:

Can't you see how badly I'm already hurting? Can't you see that you're responding simply to be a jerk??! Why?! Why the **** do you do something like that to someone who's already hurting so ******* much??!


I'm going to sleep. I'm so ******* depressed. You clearly DO NOT KNOW how badly words can hurt. You're a HORRIBLE person.

Dude I do know how it is, and so does everyone else on this forum. I've been there and got the damn tshirt.One day I woke up and was tired of being a sad ass little *****, so I did something about it.  You can try to guilt trip me all you want.. it's not gonna work. I'm telling you the truth and you don't like it. That's your problem not mine.

You are so ******* selfish. You don't care that you hurt others, do you?!

Please can someone already ban this person?? I am SO ******* HURT

Staceylouuu91x wrote:

Okay, this is getting a little out of hand now. I don't think they were actually calling you insane, it's obviously not the definition of insanity but the general point was if you do the same thing over and over and expecting change isn't a beneficial habit.  

The no contact rule is usually in place so people don't blow up their person's phone with messages and calls, this is something I'm super guilty of myself but from experience it never got me any closer to my ex. There was nothing wrong with that text you sent but from now on you should restart no contact and stick to it. 

I'm really sorry that you're struggling, as someone who has dealt with mental health issues for most of my life and I know how hard living with depression can be. You really need to take some time away from this situation, in your current vibration you'll only repel. It's not fun but it's how this whole thing works, you get what you put out but the silver lining here is once you're able to deal with the horrible stuff you can project all the good and love you have out and receive it back. 

Have you ever read Elizabeth Daniels book about manifesting an ex back? Also, Agnes has a book called Person of Interest, I think. I haven't read the latter but the former is really helpful. 



 

You are such a lovely person, this was so well written. I so agree with your statements!

Creeeeestal wrote:

YesIWILL wrote:

Can somebody please ******* say something?!?!?!?!?!?!?!@?! This is supposed to be an environment where everyone gets along! Not where someone talks down to another who's already suffering!!! Oh my GOD!!!!!!


I'm over the edge right now. I'm so depressed. **** you, kid. Look outside yourself and see how the **** your words affect others. I am so ******* hurt right now.

Literally, you've mastered the law of attraction somehow. Because somehow, even though you repeat yourself over and over again with the same problems for a year, you still get at least 10 pages of posts from people responding to you.

Nobody is talking down to you. You're too clouded to actually see and receive what anyone is saying. You keep saying "say something" but literally for the past year everybody has been saying the same thing to you. When you don't put in the work, people can't help you anymore. What you need, is to focus on you and not techniques and not winning anybody back or distracting from her. You need to get you stable in whatever way possible whether it's through professional help or just trial and error.

What you're interpreting as rude, is just everybody who's spent the past year being there for you and giving you constructive feedback, getting frustrated because you don't process a single thing. You talk in circles and suddenly the whole forum revolves around you.

This is an environment where people get along, but if you constantly come in here and ask the same questions and go against what everybody has suggested, and it's not even like there's a couple people telling you what to do, it's pages and pages that you can use as REFERENCE POINTS.....yeah, people stop being so friendly and doting.

Meanwhile the rest of our stuff doesn't even get seen because everyone's helping you and getting nowhere, because you won't help yourself.

No, it's not rudeness. It's not condescending. You are actually driving yourself mad. Literally go back and read every post you've ever made and then come back and say you haven't been repetitive.

It is very clearly rudeness. The way she's talking to me? Yes it is. She was very rude. I've had a few people message me saying the same after reading what they've said stating they're sorry I had to deal with that and that it was completely inappropriate and uncalled for.
I don't see why you or a few others would defend someone like that, when others can see they were being a TOTAL asshole.

I don't know why you're defending that person. They were being very rude! I don't see why you can't see that.

I'm going back to bed...

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