jellyb wrote:

It sounds like she's sort of all over the place, like she's not settled into anything in particular, it's all these vague pieces and scraps of info. But it's hard to know how to interpret it all, so I can see how this would be crazy making for you. It would drive me mad too.

And you deserve happiness, 100%, whether it's with her or without her. I know how hard it is to align and detach when your brain is spinning like crazy. But this can all play out the way you want, you've already done great with being respectful and polite to her mother (regardless of what she thinks of you), etc. I know hard it is to play it cool when you're screaming internally. But u do honestly believe that the more you play it cool, even if just outwardly, you send out the rights vibes to the universe about it. If that makes any sense.

Yeah... yeah it does, thank you. She really really really liked me, and we were together at one point... I just want that back you know? I don't want anyone else. I want what would make me happy. I want to be with the girl who has my heart. Somehow, I want the Universe to fix this **** for me. I'm so exhausted. I really just want her back again.

PrettyFlamingo wrote:

None of what you think she's doing really matters as people change their mind all the time. If she was with someone else and if she hates you as you say (which you really need to stop saying) don't you think she'd try and make sure you knew about it?

It's worrying that you say you can't be happy without her. You really only have two choices: be happy without her now or be miserable now and for the rest of your life. You get to choose. Because if you continue being totally miserable nothing will change. Nobody is worth it.

Ehh, I think it's more like "I don't hate him. I just don't care. Indifference", which is the final "I don't care about you, get out of my life" stage. Think she's told me that before, if that makes sense. And if she sees me as a stranger now, and someone who's not part of her life, then, no, I don't think she would. She's VERY private, and even said to me, "you're not in my life. I don't know you (making me feel like a stranger and that she doesn't care) if i date someone you're not going to know. Ita not your business" etc.


And I know. I'm trying to be the "happiest I can be" without her. Don't get me wrong, I can find some happiness, just not a FULL happiness. I'm trying every day to find that peace, but meh. Just want her back already lol

I bet all those small things started happening. When you either forgot about it or stopped caring as much

She may or may not be seeing someone and if she is who's to say it will last? Things change all the time.

Not saying that to discourage you but it happens, it happened to me. A guy I liked constantly had a string of girlfriends but none lasted.

Last edited by PrettyFlamingo (4/03/2017 1:20 am)

What if she's still in India...? Oh god what if she's with that "friend" from India who she talks to every single day and always talked to me about?? (See why I worry? You usually do that when you like someone... even though she assured me he's just a friend, idk...) gah I can't do this now