Hi all,

I'm new to all this and I just wanted to share my situation and see if you had any input. You all are amazing and have amazing stories!

Anywho, I am trying to manifest back my ex. I didn't know about LoA until very recently, but I feel like I unintentionally manifested him into my life last year when I was feeling very good about myself and saying to the Universe "Hey you got my back and I trust that you will bring me the love I deserve"

We felt the connection on our very first date, and very soon we were telling each other we loved each other and planning a future together. We told each other that it felt like we were the people that we've been waiting for our whole lives. One time I asked him "wow where have you been all my life" and his reply to me was that he was trying to become the best person he could be for me. I felt the same, but it turns out we weren't ready.

Things felt really perfect at first and I was putting a lot of love into the world. But then, I started to falter and I started to have a lot of negative feelings due to anxiety and depression, but even when we were rocky, I felt with my whole heart that we could stay together and then we did.

And then one weekend after having several weeks of very low self esteem, I had a feeling in my heart that he was going to break up with me. Instead of putting feelings out that we would stay together, I truly believed we would split and then, a couple days later, we did!! He took all the blame and cited he was not good enough for me and that he didn't have the stamina to be in a relationship anymore. He has also been going through a lot of money, career, and family stress, and he has told me he felt relieved to not be in a relationship, most likely because he has very little time and needs to focus.

So my heart still felt broken and I pleaded and texted him for couple days, but then a lot of things happened the past couple weeks that have changed my outlook. I have started seeing a counselor to deal with the negative thinking that comes from anxiety and depression, and I have begun to meditate and regularly go to the gym and recently went to a kundalini yoga class. I discovered LoA and it really fills me with joy to think of the possibilities and the power of letting go.

And my situation seems different than other stories I've read because he has not blocked me and we have an open line of communication.  In fact, I am the one who initiated no contact for the past couple days so I can heal and sort out my head. (However, before the no contact he was pretty non responsive, but he told me he has been very non responsive to everyone including family members due to extremely long shifts, which I believe).

We have also spoke three times since the breakup and all conversations were pretty normal and chill and the second time he said that his head was all mixed up now that he saw me and was talking to me, but a couple days later he seemed very decided about our breakup for now. I feel he still cares and loves me, but not want to be with me right now and is trying to not to cause me more hurt.

He has even said to me before in January when things are rocky that he could still only picture me being the mother of our children and after we broke up he said he hopes we can try this again later and work on our own individual happiness now. A few days before we broke up he told me that this relationship is very important to him and that I'm the best girl for him and that no one else will have him in their best intentions like I do.

So, I just wanted to know if you had any advice for me for really letting go and being patient? Or on anything else? Should I contact him since I was the one who initiated no contact? I would like for him to be back sooner, but I know we need the time to work on ourselves and making our own happiness. I just am putting intentions out into the world and visualizing that we are happy and in love, because I am worried that our time apart will make him lose his feelings for me. I have found myself in a relatively good situation and I really want to keep this man in my life because he is the one I intend to marry and spend a future with.

Many thanks! And sorry if this post if all over the place!!! A lot has happened recently and my head is still a little mixed up about all this, but I hope putting this out into the world will bring me some clarity.