I guess I was a little worried, but I'm slowly getting past it. I had a dream in January where someone told me 'She's ready to talk,' and my dream-self wasn't able to talk to her. Since then, I've been delving into my issues and getting everything ready—internally and externally—for our reunion. 

And, thanks—I do feel better. I called a friend and talked with her a while, and I almost see this as a challenge from the Universe. Like, 'This is your last hurdle. You can do this.' I know we're together, and I'll be damned if it doesn't work out.

Colonel Roosevelt wrote:

Something similar happened to me a very long time ago....It was actually one of the best weeks of my life lol

You don't know for sure if she's with someone new. Classic case of F.E.A.R (False Evidence Appearing Real because of your assumptions). It reminds me of another thread I saw today where two people overreacted over a simple platonic FB photo lmao

Here's what helped me: just let yourself feel the feelings, it will past. Don't stuff them away or ignore them or try to overthink them, just meditate and let yourself feel them, breathe, remind yourself that it's OK to feel and that everything will work out for the best. It might take 30 min, it might take a week, you gotta give yourself time and soothe your thoughts into patterns of everything working out for the best, being OK no matter what, knowing you will happy, knowing you are loved.

Since you were doing so well and now this happened, I personally wouldn't treat it as a setback but something to look into...what insecurities in yourself did this event reveal? What blocks or long-held fears did this show you? Can you release them or switch them around into something more empowering?


 

What made it one of the best weeks of your life? I appreciate your saying it's more an illusion than anything—you're not the only one to say so, and I'm inclined to believe that wholeheartedly. I'm unsure, given the circumstances, but my reality is manifested by me, right? So let's hang onto that.

I like the idea of letting the feelings wash over and past. I'm contemplating taking a hot shower and just absorbing them and all. I don't feel the need to do anything crazy, thank the gods. It has, oddly enough, given me a new push to attract her back. I had a dream that I needed to get myself into a good mindset and prepare the space around me for her, so I'm working on that stuff to blow off some steam. It's a good feeling, sweating out some of the pain.

Also, good call on examining my own problems. I have recently toyed with the idea of reaching out to her, since so much time has passed, and I was worried about how she'd react to me. Now that this has happened, even though I'm pretty sure it's an illusion, it's almost like nothing could hurt that bad, so I'm okay to keep manifesting, only more so. 

I think I do have one long-held fear about the length of time that's passed, and that she's no longer interested. It's a minor doubt, but it persists. Any ideas on how to delete that fear in a hurry?

Sanshi wrote:

You all have such a tight grasp on your person. I can relate, I was there too, but it hasn't served me in any way.
Think about manifesting something small for a moment, lets say a cup of coffee or sweets. You just set your intention and then let it go. You don't wonder, who the hell should give it to you or why or if someone else already drunk your coffee or where it is right now or if you really going to get it. So why is it so important what this girl does now and with whom she is at the moment? Before you got to know her, were you worried about your possible future girlfriend being in a relationship, when you would finally met her? No, of course not. You were just living your life and she showed up and the situation was perfect. Why do you even think about what is happening now? The moment you are back together with her, it won't matter anyway unless you make it matter.

Per usual, you make a pretty good statement, Sanshi. And, for what it's worth, you're absolutely right—it doesn't matter what's going on with her right now; what matters is the depth of our connection and the underlying fact that we belong together, and that I'm steadily manifesting her back with the help of the Universe. I do need to remember this and keep it close to my heart. I think, on a certain level, I just thought it wouldn't take this long, that I'd been manifesting properly all along. Now I have doubts, I guess.

Incidentally, how do you go about manifesting something small like that? Just say to the Universe, 'I'd like a cup of coffee,' picture myself drinking it for a few minutes, and leave it at that? I suppose I struggle knowing how much effort to put into something like this.

Maybe that would help, manifesting something small and building up to the big things I'm desiring. I often feel it moving, unseen, in the aether, actually, and it keeps me in a relatively happy place.

I like your analogy of the tug-of-war, with the positive and negative ends. Some days, like today, it's a bit of a struggle to remain optimistic. Especially when you're at work on two hours' sleep . 

Oddly enough, for the record, I don't feel super awful about seeing that photograph anymore. I almost take it as more of a challenge than anything. Is that wrong?