It's funny that I posted this just the other day, considering my new post. I wonder how the two are related, actually.

I know, right? I can't make heads or tails of it. Sometimes, it feels like a test; others, like I attracted the badness through fear; still others, that it was based on her manifestation. Who knows?

PrettyFlamingo wrote:

I've read on here that the universe is unbiased and if that's true I can't see how anything can be a  "test".

But perhaps when we start to raise our vibe, old rubbish comes up for us to deal with? In your case looking at the cause of poor self esteem you've alluded to.

I've heard that about the Universe being unbiased, and, yeah, by and large, I agree with that. I think my gut reaction is to see it as a test, though, which I should work on.

Maybe you're right about old rubbish. I do remember a lot of poor self-esteem, which I have been working on. Maybe I'll revisit some of my old books and renew on that. Any advice here?

Steffiqt2 wrote:

The universe doesn't test, it's your old patterns still coming up and manifesting. It's just showing there are still sub subconscious thoughts there. We don't even realize until we say that's weird where did that who what where when why come from. It came from you, the old you!!

You're right. The old me sucked, and I'm steadily getting rid of him. In the last week alone, I've done, I dunno, 800 positive affirmations? Keeping it constant—y'know, doing it a few times in the mirror each day—has felt wonderful. I definitely love the crap out of myself and it's wonderful.

Subconscious thoughts are the hardest to change, though. Here's  hoping things shift soon under the surface. I feel good overall, and the visualizing has felt great, and I am really, really happy with myself, so that's something, hah.