Hi Mia.  Welcome here. I look forward to growing with you throughout your journey. There are some great and helpful people here.

I'd suggest that you focus on the positive sides of your situation.  It seems like thinking of his lack of, his family etc is making you feel like poo.  It seems like the best bet would to pay attention to the happy things for now.  For one,  you're being blessed with a baby. Who doesn't love babies? :-) Think of it's little toes and fingers and how much love it will have for you in a few days.  Focus on welcoming the baby to a warm and happy home. Decorate, change some colors in your home.  Worry about your husband a bit later.  For now, it's happy time.
 

That's understandable. At times we all find ourselves in similar situations. In that instant,  you may have to take whatever they say to get away from them. But,  don't let it rest or process with you. You could also do Visualizations later in the night.