I wrapped up the 25 day Challenge a few days ago and wanted to share my experience. For me, this challenge was a true path to self-love and vulnerability. I released all the negative emotions I'd been holding for years, not just related to my love but everything. I am not sure when I lost my joy but I have found it again and I find it in little things. I am so filled with gratitude. I have found a true, deep love for myself that I have never felt before. The exercises in the challenge were invaluable for me and forced me to look deep inside and fix things I don't think that I would have ever done without this experience. I know I am a better person because of this experience even though it hurt. My path had everything and nothing to do with my guy.  It took until almost the last few days of the challenge to really start to let go. It's not that I didn't believe because I did. After the wedding visualization exercise, I was never more sure that I was meant to be with my guy but my fears and impatience kept popping up and I had days where I just felt consumed, especially in the middle of the last week of the challenge.

The last few days of the challenge, while I wondered why he hadn't contacted me, I didn't obsess over it. I just felt a sense of calm and peace that he would. He still hasn't but I am okay with that. I know he will when the time is right. I will continue to remind myself that as we approach Valentine's Day and birthdays. I've continued on with visualizations, PW/RS and scripting without the attachment I felt before. When little seeds of doubt or fears start, I am able to stop them immediately by saying "HE IS MINE". It helps tremendously. A few days ago, I revised the text that he sent me that started the break up conversation. I sent it myself at the same time I received his text. It was so empowering. I've only thought about this once since I revised it and it no longer feels like a punch in the gut and the hurt is gone. I actually don't feel anything when I think of it now as I am typing this. That is such progress for me. I know he will be coming back to me but I also know that I am okay on my own.

I had been seeing signs that I wasn't looking for pretty consistently weeks about mid-way through the challenge until last Monday. Then I started obsessing more and holding on. I went through a rough few days. I prayed for signs and didn't get anything. I prayed for contact and didn't get anything, By Friday, I was able to say okay, I get it God, I just need to let go and believe because I know it's coming.  I turned a corner in terms of detaching and it has become easier each day. My visualizations became laser focused and I started doing them less frequently because I was more occupied with other things. I was finally able to get my mental chatter to stop.  I wasn't feeling well last night, so I didn't do my PW last night but did it very early this morning. It may have been fever induced but it was intense and full of emotion and took a turn that I didn't expect. I'll post about it in the RS thread. This afternoon I decided to do another PW session ( I used the guided MP3 ) as well as Lanie's Powerful Me MP3 before I took a nap. When I woke up, I received two signs that I hadn't been expecting.

I am so thankful for this challenge and even the break my guy are on ( I've stopped calling it a break up). I am excited to see what life brings me. I would really encourage those of you starting the challenge to really embrace it, not as a means to the end but as a way to find yourself. It has truly been a beautiful process for me.