Hey guys

atm I'm feeling strange about this whole attracting him back thing.. it feels different. It feels like ... i don't even know how to describe it... like something in me don't want to care anymore or like giving up it's beginning to feel cold. But this feeling makes me sad because I don't even want to give up on him I still want him back and to be with him. It doesn't feel right not having him here .. idk where this feeling is coming from. What it is? Is it like detachment? I'm so confused about this mixed feelings in myself...
idk if some of you even know what I'm talking about or had the same experience lol.
Every input is welcome lol