oceanitrogen wrote:

Selfloveiskey wrote:

oceanitrogen wrote:

I do love myself and think I deserve the best. That's why I broke up with him in the first place. Because he was not being the one I fell in love with (he was perfect but I kinda screwed it up by being mean and he accepted so much from me, anyway) and he was not treating me like the goddess he always treated me as before and the goddess I know I am. I believe he is mine and truly mine and we're meant for each other. I just can't help feeling scared. Even though I believe we're meant to be a 100%, I still feel scared of us not being together again and him not loving me and working to be with me as before.

So the beginning was good you put yourself first you weren’t getting treated how you thought you should and so you left. However people are us pushed out so what were you projecting? If you were trying to get love from him to feel good and he wasn’t doing it enough then that’s not saying he wasn’t treating you like you deserve for the right reasons that’s saying he wasn’t giving me love because I need to feel loved and I need someone to make me feel loved. I would look deep in yourself and make sure you do have self love. A lot of people think they do but when you really have it you have no fear about manifesting . I know that sounds odd but really the doubts and stuff really dont pop up because you trust and aren’t counting the days you are just focused on you and living your best life. So I would really check in with yourself on that. These are really just my opinions and it’s based on my personal experience . Last year I said I had self love too but I didn’t when I really look deep in myself. I didn’t have myself on the pedastoole like I should have. So for me i really needed to reflect a lot and what I thought was self love was me being a victim “ I deserve this” he needs to do this” when really if I was coming from self love I would be checking in with me tending to me and not saying those things because well I know when I do this other people feel the difference and feel the vibration and treat me differently. I don’t think I’m articulating this like I want but I hope it makes sense. Just food for thought.

It all does make sense, but I don't know what to do. Specifically. Should I visualize and acript everyday how I want our relationship to be like and how I want him to be like and focus on myself at the same time, or what? I'm not suuure what to do

I answered most of this in the other post you had I believe if you go look there I tell ya some ideas 💡