Guys, I am worried. I would change places with anyone of you because your situation isn't as terrible as mine.

I am really feeling hopeless. If you knew...

My story isn't as conventional as yours, mine is so messed up. Somedays I'm fine but in days like this, I'm sad.

My ex's friend with benefits was the one that made us break up. Until this day she doesn't leave him alone! She's madly in love with him and they had known each other for about 5 years. In contrast me and my guy, after just known each other for 2 weeks we decided to be girlfriend and boyfriend. He never told me he loved me and I doubt he will ever will. I'm just tired. He dumped me after 2 months because he "wasn't good for me"

For REAL. this woman is just crazy today I found a Facebook message from her in my incognito facebook!!!!!!! How crazy is that?? That facebook has a fake name not mine and I have no friends in there I opened it because I wanted to use the account for a school site. She wrote me " I hope you are well Jenny, I know it's you because after search about this Facebook it lead me to your phone number and you blocked me. If you wanna talk with me you can, you can add me on fb I don't have any problems. I hope you are in good humor." She did it because in my normal fb she's blocked.

Can you believe it!!!?? I wanna kill her, she doesn't have the right to bother me.

It was from October 28th.
And I forgot to tell you but she also send me a text on my cell phone in October 18th asking me "who I was" that day I ignored her but I surely cried, (a little) because she's the woman who is in the middle of my reconciliation. That day went fine  and I find the way to remain positive.  Even took it as a signal that my guy was thinking of me and maybe they had a discussion over me or something. 3 days later my ex texted me just to say hi After 5 months of NC.

Then happened what I told you on my post "I will write here before doing something stupid again"


But it's like the world is against my best wishes. I only wanna love this man all my life and that he wants me back. And today, after sexting yesterday with him, I go to fb and find that woman again...( the 28th day message)

I swear I don't look for her, I don't stalk her I don't respond to her messages. And the minute she enters my mind I cancel all my thoughts.

She wants me to not forget that the moment I get close again with him she will tear us apart or something.

He cheated on me with this woman and how amount of visualizations can turn a player in a husband??! I TRY GUYS I SWEAR. I tried all this months apart.
Even when sometimes visualizations felt like ****. I don't know why I am trying mentally so hard when clearly this guy doesn't give a ****. He surely thinks I was just a young stupid girl he could **** off for a while just like the other woman.
Maybe is because I'm 9 years younger than him. I'm 20. And the other woman is 23.

what would you do after all my references? I know the best thing to do is just forget him and move on for good but after 6 months I didn't do it because of loa and all the inspiration I found in forums like this.

And what would you do? Should I respond to the other woman? I want to write a bunch of terrible truths in her face.