So it's been a good long while since me and my boyfriend broke up and yeah, really didn't get much promises of any changes in the situation. I've been on here for about a year now and in that year when it comes to my person I have -had a weird little facebook argument in January, ran into him in April where he was extra nice and called me beautiful even in front of his girlfriend, no replies to any form of contact (I sent a couple of emails) , he actually ran away from me at a music festival in August, then he was nice for a few seconds to me at another festival in September but became cold as ice when I told him I was there with two guy mutual friends of ours, no reply to a birthday email I sent him, cold and weird last week at our 4th run in this year. 

So on the outside- does not look great haha. But then maybe this whole 'behind the scenes' stuff is what's going on because here's something that I think: He ran away from me at the festival because he's still not ready to see me as just a friendly face he can say hello to yet, he was cold to me at the next festival because of a bit of jealousy maybe I was hanging out with the two guys (?) and cold and weird with me last week because he didn't expect me to be there and I looked damn good lol. Also, last week his girlfriend confronted me to tell me that she was 'intimidated' by me, that she was scared I might be still in love with him, that he and her were having issues...then I actually saw them fighting and her crying. 

Oh and the recent little thing- he blocked me for the first time on facebook after I sent a friendly message just saying how I hoped things weren't too awkward between us and that I went to the party because one of the mutual friends invited me. 

So oddly- perhaps...this outward negativity is actually a form of him being jealous/ annoyed that he still likes me/beginning to regret his choice. Otherwise why isn't he just chill and friendly. Anyway haha I dunno, just thought I'd make this post incase something dramatic happens in the next while. I mean, yeah it looks bad- it looks negative- but it's also like, why do you just block someone for sending a normal message without at least letting them know why.... to hurt them I would think... and why would you want to hurt someone? Because they bring up emotions in you..feelings. Even if his girlfriend wanted him to do it, he could have at least said 'sorry i have to block you because of my girlfriend' or even 'sorry I can't have any contact with you' but no, just boom- block. Oddly, the girlfriend said to me she wouldn't actually mind us being on good terms...and that made me think, she cares about how he's treating me now because she feels that she's going to be the 'ex' sooner or later. That's what my intuition told me anyway.

At the moment though, because it's Christmas and stuff, my anxiety and depression are pretty high in general so unfortunately I can't be all optimistic and unfortunately when he did block me, it did actually hurt me a little, so he got the response he wanted I would think. Like imagine- after so long, after other things like me actually writing him to ask him back last year, he chooses the most casual and not dramatic message to block me over. I have a feeling it's jealousy, I have a feeling he thinks I'm into the mutual friend because I got a message from the friend today asking me why I messaged my ex, so my person must have contacted the friend about it..which is like, drama? Why the drama? Like the only reason a person would want to create drama is because they're feeling something.

Last edited by ShootingStar (12/24/2016 3:10 pm)