These last few days that I haven't talked to My Love-I can feel that I am vibing  lower than I've been-every time a negative thought  presents itself..I try to change it quickly-but maybe I'm struggling(?) trying to be super positive to everyone-everywhere but just feeling a bit frustrated that it seems things are working out for everyone else-everywhere else-all the while I believe that it will for me-saying and thinking...things are better-they're getting better-and I Believe in LOA-but a year and some later it seems that my reality with my love is so...distant to almost the point of fading away at times and Idk what else to do to turn this around! All the while, I look at folk that I've encouraged not to think a negative thought or speak what they do not want to see etc and it is coming together for them.

OH IM TRYING. I've honestly changed so much with my defeatist (if that's a word, lol)  and negative mindset.  I see improvements in my thoughts, desires, and conversation. I desire this relationship. I expect to have what I desire...I want him to wake up and realize what's in front of you. I'm tired of everyone else getting what they want while I make all of these positive changes and see mine yet not coming to pass...

Maybe it's just that time of the month, idk!!😂😂 But seriously...

Signed,

CHANGE FOR ME HAS TO COME