Sanshi wrote:

I think it's time to give up, if you aren't able or willing to put in the mental strength that is needed to make that work and it needs a lot mental strength in the beginning. As long as you think about what is happening and talk about what is happening, nothing can change.

No I'm willing :0 ... I've learned from you so much and was so positive and focused it was awesome. But wouldn't it be hard for you as well if such a horrible echo appears? I know it's just an echo but in that moment it was like a hit in my face.

I don't want to give up and my heart still says it's not the end. It was just in that moment... I was kinda in shock... that's all. Its just I'm too nosy I shouldn't even ask him until he's telling me about it. If I wouldn't know I wouldn't have react that way. But really I tried everything to get back on track and remember that this doesn't matter...

Please sanshi don't say something like that.. I felt really terrible in that moment just needed some reminder from people who will understand. Because a friend of mine told me 'ahhh forget about him just hook up with some other guy' but that's not me and as long I still believe in my heart that there's a total chance to switch to what I want I won't give up..

Last edited by MadMoiselle87 (12/02/2016 7:16 pm)

Avaelle wrote:

You don't desire some other guy. That's why I don't talk to my friends about my love life

Yeah you're so right ... I can only talk about that with one friend and she knows our whole story so she's able to understand. For everyone else I'm just crazy and naive ... but I don't care. I don't want another guy I want my love

See that it is only one of infitite possible versions. You don't have to think about it. Nobody can force you to do it. It's not more true than what's in your imagination. You only believe that, because that's what you have been taught to believe.

MadMoiselle87 wrote:

Thanks sanshi you're right. Sometimes I just forget that this isn't more real than a lucid dream in which I can control what's happening. It's true nobody says I have to think about it or even worry. In my reality we're together and deep inside me I know there must be a reason that after all these time he's still coming back eventhough I'm difficult at times ^^.

Yeah, there is a reason and that's your vibration. The universe uses every short moment in which you aren't resistant to bring you what you want.
You know, the day I gave you this great advice to not talk to him when you know that your vibe is off. The same day I did EXACTLY the opposite of what I told you and I did it in full awareness of it, but I couldn't help, but follow my bad feeling emotions and I got exactly what I expected (I screwed up completely). As an explanation for my behaviour, I told the same story you just did. I'm difficult, sometimes I don't even understand myself. I have experience from my past that influence me...bla bla bla. But that are all stories that can only exist, because we believe in them. Even our character is there, because we believe in it. We are much more flexible than we think.

We have to remind us of this stuff again and again until it's hardwired in our brain.

MadMoiselle87 wrote:

Don't want to sound mean but it's good to know that sometimes even you can't control your thoughts or emotions.

That's the very reason I told the story.

MadMoiselle87 wrote:

And you're right we think so much that we're difficult and angry pretty fast or jealous blah blah but if we think that way about us how should it be possible that this changes? Do you know Benthino Massaro? Since I found him a few days ago I'm watching his videos everyday and it's such an eye opener! And he says the same! Even our character it's just our choice! And we can decide how we are every moment. Guess another thing I have to work on.

Sanshi we aren't difficult we're totally relaxed, wonderful, sexy girls and they can be happy to be with us we're the jackpot!

Yeah, I know Bentinho for a year now. He is brilliant, but what we get out of it is always filtered through our vibration. I got something completely different out of it last year when I listened to him for the first time.

Of course we are the jackpot. Intelligent, self reflected, funny, interesting, vibing high, sexy, unresistable. Did I forget something?