MadMoiselle87 wrote:

It sucks so much after not hearing very much from him for two days he told me that he meets a girl today and he hopes for something serious but it's too early to say anything ... he even stays overnight because she lives an hour away
I just answered that I hope she isn't so annoying as me and went offline...
then I sent a message that it sucks that he cares so less about my feelings - no answer ...
I'm so afraid that he's getting together with her ...
it hurts so much I'm just crying anymore ..

I thought it went so well ... now everything falls in total pieces ...

I'm no sanshi but... I see your focus is on what is. You're focusing too much on the fact that he is seeing someone. You're focusing too much on the fact that he rejected you. That's okay. It's normal to do this when you start this journey. I did it too. My advice is to just allow yourself to feel. The more you try to fight your situation and or affirm/visualize through it the more you're perpetuating the situation through resisting it. Accept what's happening and be at piece with it. When you can relax and accept what is you get out of your own way and then the universe can start working. In the meantime move forward into your life. This is the letting go step. Find your happiness because this journey is truly all about you.

InLakEsch wrote:

MadMoiselle87 wrote:

It sucks so much after not hearing very much from him for two days he told me that he meets a girl today and he hopes for something serious but it's too early to say anything ... he even stays overnight because she lives an hour away
I just answered that I hope she isn't so annoying as me and went offline...
then I sent a message that it sucks that he cares so less about my feelings - no answer ...
I'm so afraid that he's getting together with her ...
it hurts so much I'm just crying anymore ..

I thought it went so well ... now everything falls in total pieces ...

I'm no sanshi but... I see your focus is on what is. You're focusing too much on the fact that he is seeing someone. You're focusing too much on the fact that he rejected you. That's okay. It's normal to do this when you start this journey. I did it too. My advice is to just allow yourself to feel. The more you try to fight your situation and or affirm/visualize through it the more you're perpetuating the situation through resisting it. Accept what's happening and be at piece with it. When you can relax and accept what is you get out of your own way and then the universe can start working. In the meantime move forward into your life. This is the letting go step. Find your happiness because this journey is truly all about you.

Thank you well tbh I'm not on the beginning of my journey ^^ and the hilarious thing about this happening is that two days ago I wrote about his behavior and was in such a lack state ... sanshi opened my eyes and eventhough he didn't text me much the last few days I really could hold my focus and felt so well. But this today ... it's like a shock ^^ I thought about it after I cried my eyes out and I guess it's just the typical echo from my past lacking thoughts and I was really annoying for him the last time so it's his way to escape from me ...
after realizing that I come to the result that I attracted this girl and his distance from me and as we are in a parallel universe I just have to focus on what I want again: him being with me again and having a loving relationship with me doesn't matter whats right now just ignore what I'm seeing and focus on what I want ^^ I feel much more satisfied right now ... crazy if I'm thinking about crying my eyes out two hours ago

Last edited by MadMoiselle87 (12/02/2016 3:50 pm)

You're welcome and I understand.  I have my days too. TRUST ME.

No. No one that truly believes in this would accept the feeling of defeat .