Hello everyone
 
Before I’ll start with the topic itself, I would love to say how grateful I am for last few weeks. I have met so many new people and learned much more about the law of attraction then I did in past three years.
Now, I am trying to get my man back for eight month. I have been through so many feelings from anger to complete desperation. I gave up on him several times but I was never able to let him go with ease. When I looked back, I found out that I have never forgiven him for making me crazy for him and then disappearing. That’s probably why he did it to me twice. I am influenced by so many people so please don’t take this as completely my idea, I am just putting more teachings together and want to share how I see it now.
I have been trying really really hard to make it all work. I have been visualizing many times a day, wrote a gratitude diary, watched as many positive movies as I could, listened to Abraham Hicks daily. None of it is a bad thing, but I did all of this with too much effort. I made that man my life priority and spent so much time on trying to have him.
As you maybe can tell, I wasn’t happy at all. I wasn’t enjoying anything of that. Actually, I think that I hated the process deep inside of me. I was told several times, that I HAVE TO BE HAPPY first, so I tried to force myself into happiness, which of course didn’t really help.
Now I am maybe finally starting to understand how it should be and I am starting to understand, because I am fuc*ing tired. Having him as my life priority doesn’t feel right anymore. Seeing love as something which brings lacking and pain in our lives also doesn’t seem right to me. Finally I am feeling like love is something different. I think that love is very easy and beautiful feeling. I don’t feel like pain is connected to love anymore.
Somehow, I am starting to want happiness more than my specific one. I don’t connect my happiness with him anymore. One of my friends said that it looks like the universe (god) wants us to move on. I am not giving up on him, I just want to stop giving up on myself. Moving on for me doesn’t mean that I don’t want my man anymore, it means wanting to be in vortex all day long. I want to feel constant excitement and joy. I want to get the best things possible, because I believe that I really deserve it. Basically, what I really want now, isn’t the man, it is waking up and living every single day with a huge smile on my face.
If I understand concept of the vortex properly, it’s a place, vibrational place, where the best possible version of our reality is. And so it should be obvious, that we should want to be in the vortex much more, than to be in a relationship with our specific person, because we would be getting much more there.
I was asked a very good question. If we move on from the person we want to wanting to be in vortex, how would it influence the specific person? Well, I don’t know how it would influence them, but I am pretty sure that it will influence us the best way possible. I think that prioritising someone lowers our vibration all the time. No matter how hard we try, our vibration will never be high enough to manifest love, until we become our own priority.
By this I didn’t want to tell you that I will stop doing visualizations, RS, sending love and all the other techniques I have learnt from you, I am still using them, but with completely different intention. I am going to do all of this just to feel happy, just because its funny and I enjoy it. I believe that this can give you only two possible results – getting your specific person or someone even better!