just keep visualizing and feeling good and just know that it is coming. just know it was your fearful thoughts that manifested that, you are the creator

I think I need to get lost for a while. I need to work on myself completely. What he did yesterday changed my desires. I want this reconcilation so bad, but not with his behavior. He acts like a totally different person. He being flirting with girls around the town, why would anyone want a player? Is embarassing. I fell like I'm healing and he is not. Everytime I backup, he appears. There haven't been a month that we haven't talk. He needs my light, there is something he is not telling me, I know. I feel like he deeply loves me but he can't accept it. I always end up hurt and this on and off game that he is putting me on can't be anymore. Thats why I need to back off and work from distance, so he knows I'm serious about this.

The same thing happened with me, he kept calling after he said he wanted space. Then I found out I wasn't invited to his Halloween party. I felt disrespected and frankly betrayed. I hung up on him and haven't spoken to him for weeks. However, my love for him has only grown stronger because I forgave and let go. Cherished has a really great post on forgiveness so look it up in the search area. When I forgave I was able to see signs and say great thanks so much Universe! and move on with my day and then go on feeling great. I know my love is on his way because I can feel it. I visualize and meditate in the morning and evening but throughout my day I do my own thing. When he pops into my head like Abraham says " that's a manifestation" and I go on with my day. Let it go and it will come back to you in a way that you want it to. 
Also, don't be so hard on yourself. Give yourself the time you need to heal. If you are saying that you don't want to talk about the past are you ready to move on, I know I wasn't. It takes time that's why a lot of the time we hold ourselves back. 
Also, just remember whom you adore, adores you back. From this place you really don't have anything to worry about. Time will only heal everything and create such an amazing relationship so that when it manifests it is the most amazing!!

I hope this helps!

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You're so welcome! I think the best thing is a social media cleanse. In general it just opens up way more time for do things that fills me up rather than sometimes make me feel insecure and down. I like that you have already changed the way that you are writing in your posts. Keep that up, it will make you a very happy person, for you. No contact for me is so beneficial because you heal. Most people want to manifest their love back from a place of fear. If you have truly decided that this person is the one for you then let go and trust in the universe's power.  
By letting go that means that you have forgiven YOURSELF. Maybe you are so upset about your own steps that you created because we create our reality. That means you have to take responsibility for this breakup. I did meditations, listened to affirmations and really dove deep into forgiveness because I knew as mad as I was at him, I was even more pissed at myself because I attracted him back and messed everything up. 

I cannot wait to read your success story about your silly text because it will come. Believe it and you will achieve it. 

You can find the Abraham video on YouTube I think it is Getting back a specific lover. Here is the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFXO78tq2MQ   This video changed my life.I try and listen to it every morning. There is also a book by Abraham Hicks on Amazon called Ask and it is Given. It has some really great exercises to begin with and also I spent a lot of time on this board. If you have a question there is a good chance it was someone else's at one point.