I havent been on here in a while. However, the last time I was on here I was distaught, heart broken, anxious, and many more things. My live ignored me for several months due to me telling a friend our problems. He came back around but I would say something crazy as a result it pushed him back away. Instead of me asking wueations i acted ways to try to get a reaction to try to get an answer indirectly. He did tell me he made himself change feelings for me. Recently I asked him to visit in which he did. We jokes like old times but I still have a little fear becAuse I know he has no problem being friends with his exes and the thought i being friend zoned it not exciting. Ive learned to accept everything. We text each other atleast once every 2 weeks but its not much of a conversation. But its just a little success nothing dramatic.