Love   Take baby steps     Dont think about what you have thought or done in the past to mess things up.    When you are thinking of the friends you feel are drifting away or no longer like you   think of them as you WANT them to be toward you      I am seriously where you are    and have been for a very very long time     I am finally learning    Sweetie  I KNOW how hard this bit will be  ( and you will have serious setbacks)   but try to see the good  try to see the positive in the mess   you have made with persistant bad thoughts  or ideas    what I did was put a rubber band on my wrist    every time I think a negative thought about the future or my situation  I snap myself  to remind me   to let it go   and think of something lovely      I firmly and absolutley believe I will get my life back    only better and in a perfect way     It wont happen for either of us overnight     but as you get back to feeling and totally believing  you can    I am sure we will both have good news  in the 25 days of Veronica's challenge

Love    I know  absolutely   I lost absolutely everything  because of the downward spiral   all my posessions, my friends , my family ( who just dont understand I love him )  my job    my car     you get it darling right?      People always choose sides when  something horrific like this happens     just the way it is     I have no words for the pain I felt in all that rejection       And I am certain that you feel the same    you cant even breathe       It sounds like you guys had a bond before you became lovers     use that  to your advantage    for right now the "friends" will drift away    and you will feel it    You did lose two people   and you are mourning for both      As hard  as it is  and I know  boy do I know     baby yourself the best you can      it is your inner strength that will bring everything back   and better      Think warm loving thoughts of holding the baby    Picture your love by you as you do it     you are all together as friends    seamlessly   no angst   no retribution        Dont give up    I dont know your financial situation    but I am saving up for a consult with Veronica     At work I listen to her on you tube     that does help because all her advice is positive     Dont give up   He loved you once      I wish you were my neighbor  I would nuture you    as that is what you need now    so nuture yourself     if a book or television program upsets you   turn it off       I wished for the longest time to be gone too   the pain is so great       Baby Steps    just  breathe     and remember you have a group of us all feeling the same pain     we have all been there     think of it as Childbirth   we are in agony now    but when our desires come to us completely and in a perfect way   all will be well       You need to work through the pain    that pain is holding you back     I know the concept seems contrary     your soul wants God  to see how miserable you are  and bring you  what you need     Yet it works the other way around    pain brings pain    You are not at that point yet    but the cycle will stop   find ANYTHING you can do  ( Please not self destructive)   to make you forget for even a minute    and let the minutes grow to hours     when you visualize   do it  after meditating  for peace    never visualize when you are in a turbulant frame of mind    it will bring more      Take a candle  perhaps some incense    find a deep breathing  meditation exercise   and do that first      then Visualize    REALLY BELIEVE he is with you    always be relaxed       breathe in the white pure light     breathe out negativity and thoughts that will keep him away     Do this  after looking at a lovely sunset  or sunrise   or in a place you feel is safe and maybe sacred     surround yourself with beauty     I know you dont feel like it   right now   but   to attract back your friends   and your love   you have to have the mindset of love and appreciation     I hope this helped     I am struggling through the same thing as you     Love   I REALLY understand all the emotions you are going through    Dont give up     message me whenever you need support or understanding      but also think about a consult with Veronica   she might be able to help you  with the emotions

How are you doing today?   you are surrounded by people in the same shoes   we all at times are  grieving for what we have lost    but the past is the past    look to a brilliant future  I KNOW its hard   but we are all here to help you     You CAN get your ex back    around me I have been beseaged with people telling me stories of reconcillation   NONE of them know how my life revolves around  him and the loss    so its truly the universe telling me  IT CAN HAPPEN  we just need to lose our desperation   which is hard  and replace it with faith it WILL HAPPEN

You can have them back! You need to relax and try to understand that emphatically. YOU CAN HAVE THEM BACK!  But right now you are standing in your own way.  In fact,  you're the ONLY thing standing in your way.  You must try to raise your vibration by meditating or just breathing deeply and feeling your connection with the universe.  When you can calm down and stop looking at your old story,  write the new story abd focus on it to the exclusion of everything else. You can have them back!

It's only happening to you because you continue to create it. And I mean that with only kindness!