Hurt and anger about what?

BooLala wrote:

Cherished wrote:

Hurt and anger about what?

About being randomly cut off three times now, two times she's cut me off I let it go and she comes running back but last time I couldn't do it. She daily tells me how madly in love with me she is and I can see right through her eyes and she truly means it and I can see it. Thats what hurt more and she cuts me off randomly. A friend of hers said she does it cos she is madly in love but is absolutely scared cos of what she's been through and is actually scared of being happy

I know that story all too well. My beloved was just like that before he realized his feelings will always remain and that everything will be okay. I used to feel responsible for him because of that, like I had to help him. Then I just decided to relax, have faith, and continue to enjoy myself. Love is the most powerful energy in existence.

holistichealing wrote:

BooLala wrote:

Cherished wrote:

Hurt and anger about what?

About being randomly cut off three times now, two times she's cut me off I let it go and she comes running back but last time I couldn't do it. She daily tells me how madly in love with me she is and I can see right through her eyes and she truly means it and I can see it. Thats what hurt more and she cuts me off randomly. A friend of hers said she does it cos she is madly in love but is absolutely scared cos of what she's been through and is actually scared of being happy

I know that story all too well. My beloved was just like that before he realized his feelings will always remain and that everything will be okay. I used to feel responsible for him because of that, like I had to help him. Then I just decided to relax, have faith, and continue to enjoy myself. Love is the most powerful energy in existence.

My problem is I know it all and I'm a perfect example that it works as I've attracted her back twice and from an impossible situation but this time. Its hit deep and hard that I can't just let it go

BooLala wrote:

My problem is I know it all and I'm a perfect example that it works as I've attracted her back twice and from an impossible situation but this time. Its hit deep and hard that I can't just let it go

So this is something you have to work out within yourself, the more you say you can't just let it go, the more you are solidifying that belief. You can let it go, you've let it go before so its not that you can't, its just right now you haven't healed enough to be able to do so. Rewrite the script. Take this as a challenge to discipline your mind. You can and you will let go. She's madly in love with you, so what if she cuts you off for a bit? When you're back together and living a wonderful life, are you really going to care about her cutting you off for a period of time because she was too scared to be happy? This is all in the past, let it all go - its irrelevant now. Own your future, you've done it twice before you can do it again with a bit of focus and determination. 
 

Cherished wrote:

I think you need to bring your attention back to CREATING and not reacting. You're a deliberate creator. And you are completely reacting instead. You have to find a way to soothe yourself- by really acknowledging that YOU are the person creating your life. You have full creative control here. You just need to come back to that knowing.

Without meaning to sound disrespectful or rude to anyone, I know all this, its actually being able to implement it thats causing me problems :/