Hello!

Hope everyone is well!

So, I've been having the time of my life rediscovering myself and reconnecting with myself.  It's been great and I've been so happy!  Happier than I have been in I don't even know how long! 

I've been enjoying my new car, getting ready to move into my new apartment and daydreaming about how to decorate it and how awesome my new life is! 

As far as romance and what to do about that other, unpreferred situation I accidentally created...here's where I am at and could use a bit of clarify/guidance.

I've sat down with myself and defined what my preferred reality/desire is.  So I have that down-pat.  I know I want to be my ideal/best self in a committed, loving, romantic relationship/partnership with my guy being his best self. 

OK - so, as I understand it - I just drop the past and I just go to the end result and I basically work backwards by playing make-believe (like you would do as a kid) and just live as if I already have that.

Where I am stuck is - part of me would like my guy to chase me and declare his love for me and declare he wants us to be together in this way.  Now, part of this is because that never really happened in the past when we got together - so it would be nice to receive this type of declaration from him defining us.

However - it seems like if I'm desiring him to chase me and profess his love to me, etc. - then that's contradictory to my ultimate, end result desire - AND it also in a way gives my unpreferred situation a bit too much attention - right - because then it makes this unpreferred situation a platform by which now he can come running back and declare his love for me and only me, blah blah. 
But this seems counterproductive and it seems to give the unpreferred attention it shouldn't have and also takes away from the energy I could be putting into focusing on/living the end result.

So, I feel a bit stuck here.  Do I just drop the idea of him chasing me and declaring his love for me?  OR do I somehow work that in as backstory/history for my new story I'm creating by using Neville's pruning shears of revision or remember when technique and just assume that this whole bit of him chasing me and declaring love for me and defining our relationship already happened in the past and then continue to move on with skipping ahead to the end result but living that end result in the present?

Hope I've explained myself clearly - sometimes I confuse myself a bit!

Thank you!