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Changing topic - career goal
Hi all
My dream has always been to be a doctor and I currently work in IT. I'm supposed to write the MCAT at the end of August but I haven't had much motivation to study. I already know I'll likely need to rewrite in January, which I don't mind doing. In fact, I want my first test to be to get a sense of the MCAT.
Initially I lost motivation to study because I was just to preoccupied with my ex. Now I've reached a point where I am happy and confident in the person I've become that I really don't care. At this point, I'd rather just watch tv after work and play on my iPad or hang out with friends or go to the gym or lurk this forum. It's anything but study!
I visualize my self as a doctor and I feel the excitement. I volunteer at the hospital too and I know I want this. However, LOA isn't magic in my opinion because I can't be a doctor without writing this exam. Something is blocking me from studying. Any tips on removing these blockages?
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Re: Changing topic - career goal
I got academically dismissed from school because I post all my passion in studying. I felt like studying just drains me and prevents me from discovering the true profession I want to do. Right now I am apart of this training program to work in a medical office. Quite honestly, even though the pay is better than minimum wage, it is not where I see myself to be. Lately, as I dive into myself I am starting to have clear images of where I want to be.
I want to be leading with a group of women. To help guide other women seeking spiritual help to get on the path they were meant to be on. But I am stuck.....One my mom would never approve so long as I am under her roof. My baby sister is "autistic", but truthfully as I began meditating and learning about telepathy and such, I began to see that she is fine. She just chooses not to speak, she does it with her mind. I stopped verbally communicating with her.
She always looks at me when I speak with her telepathically. She is always happy closing off from the negatives of my house hold. Why? It is because she knows about the great vortex and it is more real than the misery that sits in the house hold. She is also very fond of crystals and is a healer. That is when I learned about crystal children and I learned I am also a crystal child.
We are very loving and we are healers. We love nature, crystals and just roaming free. I lean red the reason I sway is because I like to flow like water to stay calm. I even realized my sister is the same way. Now I brought this up because this is something my mom won't acknowledge. My sister and I are the only spirtual ones, so my dream would not be "realistic". My next issue is finding women who would want to be apart of this community.
I wouldn't know where to start, how to set it up and raise the money since with our giving services the energy exchange would be money. I am still quite stuck on this subject even though I feel such a passion for it. So I am stuck with the office job. I mean I would enjoy doing customer service, but I want to do more to help women and even men if they are curious. I know you asked for advice and I brought up my experience to show that in your case you are passionate about this career. Is there a chance that maybe you feel you cannot pursue it? Are you afraid of failure? I mean like study and it be a waste? Or maybe you feel the need for a break because you feel once you go further down this road you won't be able to do the things you enjoy anymore?
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Re: Changing topic - career goal
I'm kind of in a similar spot - there's so much I want to accomplish career-wise but also more than that - I want more passion to write my short stories, be more involved in volunteering, to get the motivation to study for exams again, etc.
Ever since mid-April, I've kind of let myself off the hook and just enjoyed life in the moment, learning to detach from anxiety and frustration by just enjoying life as it comes. I've been working out, playing my favorite video games, enjoying my favorite shows and music, reading new books, practicing self-appreciation, exploring new ideas for my short stories, learning more about spirituality - anything that guided me from frustration to hopefulness and optimism on the Emotional Guidance Scale.
It was a lot of fun and I feel that it definitely pushed me up the Emotional Guidance Scale (and a few big manifestations occurred with it). Now that I'm closer to where I want to be on that scale, I feel like reintegrating the dark side within me, opening up and learning from the self-hate and depressive thoughts I've repressed. With greater self-awareness and "consciousness" of myself, I now feel "pulled" by clear goals that I know will guide me closer to my dreams, even if the path doesn't make complete sense yet.
So now it's all about finding the motivation or rather the Spirit within to go after my goals. I'm doing that right now by meditating more, practicing affirmations/better feeling thoughts, visualizing scenes that make me feel optimistic overall, and enjoying stories or 'archetypes' of my heroes that bring out the same sense of power within me.
I feel like a big block has been lifted off my shoulders by practicing mindfulness and getting to the roots of my repressed self-hate, by delving into my past and my failures and regrets that give power to the hate within. I feel that I wasn't going after my goals because I didn't release my fear of failure, and my own hatred for my past compounded that fear exponentially - I allowed a few setbacks to create an identity of failure for me, so now I needed to reclaim my own identity. I realized that the only way to move on is to make peace with the past, so one of my affirmations is "The Buddha is within me. I deserve love and joy, I deserve to be free." A part of me feels that I can't be free completely until I truly accept the past and change myself from within, to "be at war and defeat" my past by making my life so awesome now . So that's what I'm doing now. We'll see how it goes, right now I'm just going to trust my own intuition and find the "warrior archetype" in me that makes thoughts of freedom and power much easier.
For example, General Patton is my "warrior archetype" and the Buddha is my "self-love archetype".The warrior and the self-love energies are two forces I feel intuitively will help me a lot to be more free and happy in life. After meditating a lot, I felt that these two energies were needed now more than ever. So on one hand, I have the Buddha within me with thoughts of love, joy, self-appreciation, and acceptance. In meditative states, I'll focus on an image of Buddha on my computer and then I'll picture my inner Buddha sitting on a lotus flower that is in my heart and feeling the immense love and serenity moving out to my body, as weird as it seems. And then I'll think "The spirit of the Buddha is within me...I deserve love and joy....I deserve to be free...I deserve to love and appreciate myself...I love and appreciate my inner confidence and resolve...etc." On the other hand, I have the warrior spirit within me represented by General Patton, a legendary American general in WWII. In meditative states, I'll keep an inspirational quote from General Patton on my computer and then I'll picture myself being him and feeling the spirit with which he said the quote, fighting off the Nazis (my past sort of), and that thought inspires thoughts of power and confidence like "General Patton is within me....I have a strong warrior spirit....I have a confident spirit....I have the confidence to pursue my dreams....I have the confidence to complete my goals....I have the confidence to write again and to express myself....I deserve to be free....I have the power to be free and happy..." The other reason I chose these "archetypes" is because as a kid I loved to read about both spirituality and WWII, so Buddha and General Patton were heroes to me, which makes it all the more fun.
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