Allowing means stopping all the things that are holding your desire apart. Stop worrying, stop thinking about what was/is, stop talking about what is/was, and after that tuning into the frequency of your desire by feeling it has already happened.

I have fans? I had no idea...maybe I should sell fan merchandise.

tessy wrote:

Dear "In Love..." firstly I love the name u gave yourself! Says a lot anyways, I am new to the forum and only a month in LOA  so not actually have much to say to you but being a huge fan of Sanshi I keep reading her replies which gives me a lot of confidence. Reading your story, I feel a lot similar, I did the same thing you did (not going in details and I repeating the incident takes me to those moments I don't wanna live anymore) and I created my own situation. Exactly like you I am a super confident woman, infact people look up to me for advice in office, personal front, friend circle etc. I never knew about LOA but being this "happy go lucky" girl I always attracted every single thing in my life (believe me "Every single thing") and being a believer I thought I am Gods special child! Now unknowingly someone I desired came in my life and I thought this was the biggest gift God gave me and I messed up. Messed up big time! Now coming to know of LOA i realized I CREATED MY OWN SITUATION. I kept being negative throughout and thats what I got!!! Now what to do? Its been more than 3 months and I am still thinking....analyzing...visualizing...scripting...believe me, I was exactly where you are!! At times my logical mind used to be like "R u crazy" stop these, and next moment I am again scripting my love life :
I dont have reasons to give you but something which has helped me a lot is now I think "Ok fine, I messed up" but I "FORGIVE MYSELF" I have been GREAT to HIM...I STILL LOVE HIM, CARE FOR HIM, THINK ABOUT HIS SAFETY, his HAPPINESS and if he is HAPPY WITHOUT ME, Its his choice! I still keep my desires in place and STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY, that ONE DAY HE WILL REALIZE!! Now till then, what should I do? Keep crying, get desperate and feel pity for myself.....NAAAAAHH....not anymore. Yes there will be days when I will sit under the shower and cry my heart out but then again I have to move on, and BELIEVE THAT HE WILL COME BACK. This BELIEVE is very strong inside me. Start Believing your LOVE, the love that you have for him! No one can love him the way "YOU CAN" so keep that faith. Its a phase, it will pass. And even if it dosnt (god forbid) trust me, few months (maybe a year) down the line, you will laugh at it. I got a nice fwd on whats app saying "EVERY LOVE IS TRUE LOVE TILL YOU FIND ANOTHER " Lolzzzzzzzzzz It made me laugh, I wish you a lovely love life!!! Always and forever !

Thank you so much Tessy for taking the time to share your story. It seems we have a lot in common indeed and are somewhat in similar places.

I know regardless what happens we will be okay- there are more important and heartbreaking things in life. I really hope for the fairy tale with the happy plot twist but in the end I can only make sure I'm ready to receive.

It all boils down to self confidence which I seem to be inconsistent with which causes my manifestations to be inconsistent. Hindsight is really 20/20 -

Right now what I would love to have is some of that life magic where everything just falls into place and you're just watching in awe at how miracles come together ... Wouldn't that be just perfect ?

Yes "In Love..." our stories are similar but trust me mine has been even worst!! My confidence was crushed to an extent that I started to look at myself with doubt Inspite of doing so much for him, did I deserve this? Yes I did, the reason was my own securities and that I made this person my entire "universe" his calls/ texts made my day, when he didnt text/ call I am totally down like I am half dead....Thats not right but that was my frame of mine, I was JUST NOT SATISFIED!! I kept wanting more more and more till my love got so bugged that he literally shut me out!!! He was so respectful towards me because of my ambitions, work, the way I was, but since he came in my life, I made HIM my world and looked for happiness through him. That was my mistake. Its been so long, and now I know when we get back (ahem ) I wont be the same. I will change, infact I have! 

Yes it hurts, hurts like crazy. I have been through sleepless nights, crying sitting at conferences, movies and what not!!! Now when a friend compliments or wants to go out on a date I give them a killer look (u are also like him type) But life goes on, I am not worried about the outcome anymore. I love him anyways (Cant help) they say love is blind, mine is totally handicap! So let it go this way only. Hoping for his speedy return and for everyone else too!!!!!!!!!!

Wow i believe the universe wants me to stumble on this topic to strengthen me.
I have the similar "reality" at the moment and it's been 3 months or so..my love and his "temporary" (lol yea that name suddenly popped in my mind at the moment i write this comment) are all over his facebook. He was not so socially facebook type of person but in this recent reality, he's always there. Flirting, date details and even talk about their sex on facebook to each other and he seemed to always at her place. Like lovey dovey-we have amazing sex-couple and all the world should know it.

Yesterday possibly the most shocking one for me because he posted the explicit details of her multiple orgasms, their making out positions and how much he enjoyed them on his facebook (like duh, and yes i roll my eyes at the moment). And so..for the 1st time in 20 days of succeding to brush off the negative energies and maintaining my vibration, i felt terribly upset and jealous (nope, in all those 20 days i had no single jealousy). Thank god it didn't stay long as i woke up the next morning with more enthusiasm! And very horny for him..hehe..after doing my RS.
Well, i got up this morning gladly with a new believe that nobody loves him the way i do and that i won't give up, i already have him back and we are together as we have always dreamed to be. The Hell with the reality, the hell with morals, the hell with others, i deserve to have what my i want and build my own reality. That sounds selfish? Nope, i love him and will support him with unconditional love in all his life in the near future, so that's not selfish. In my reality he is incredibly happy and being with me for the rest of his life is the happiest thing he ever had in his life. So, i'm not selfish at all.

I'm a newbie, but sanshi and some of the people here had been very helpful whether they realize it or not, and my deep gratitude goes to all of them too. And yes Sanshi, you do have lots of fans incl.me hehe.
By the way, thanks to you too InLove.. very nice helpful topic for me!

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