Hi everyone, I'm new here.

I've been with my boyfriend for about four months now and I am certain he's the one for me. I have never loved someone so much or felt so connected to someone before.

About a month ago we started arguing more frequently, 100% of the time brought on by me. I've been under a lot of stress which makes me irritable and he has been very patient and understanding. Then a few days ago we got into a massive fight, where I was sure we'd break up. He changed, he was acting very cold and distant, and like he didn't care. I was shocked, I would have never thought he'd act like that. It was like he was a whole new person.

We patched things up but ever since then I have felt like things are different between us. He acts differently. It's like his patience and understanding have gone out the window, and I really can't recognize him sometimes. Feeling scared for us, I asked him for some reassurance and he got upset with me.

I don't know what to do. I don't know where my sweet, loving boyfriend has gone. We used to be so in love and I never thought he'd hurt me. Now things are shaky and I don't feel the love from him I need to.

I know that I must have attracted this. My past is full of failed relationships and I don't know how to be in a healthy relationship. He is so good to me usually, I couldn't ask for anything more, and maybe subconsciously I felt it was going too well and I sabotaged it.

I want to know how I can get us back where we were, but the worry and fear of how he's been acting makes me feel like he's given up. I don't know how to turn my thoughts around.

Please help, I love him so much.