So lately Ive been busier than ever with work and hanging out with friends, I hardly think about my man as much as I used to and when I do it's nothing but positive thoughts and knowing that we will be together again soon and I always envision the relationship I want with him and how happy we will be. I've gotten to the point where I can say I've completely let the outcome go and the how it will manifest and that i no longer have resistance for the most part.(before i used to have trouble thinking about him without having negative thoughts but now i no longer have that) But tonight i went on a date with another guy and it's been 4 months since the break up, this guy was hot and sweet and I thought I wanted to get laid tonight but i just made out with him and it made me feel sick for some reason and I said i didnt want to do anything else with him. When i got home i instantly started crying and I don't even know why. I can't even tell you if it was rooted in sadness, but I just cried, I'm not sure I guess it's because i miss my guy but even saying that doesnt seem like thats the reason why im crying a lot.

Just confused and wondering if anyone else randomly cries like this, I guess it's just me releasing emotion and resistance in a way idk????

Last edited by whosurdaddy (6/23/2016 10:39 pm)