Hey guys,

I make it short because sitting still hurts but I want to share something with you.

On Wednesday they took my appendix out. The pain before and after the operation kinda..sucked. But it never killed my alignment. Yes, I had had angst before the anesthesia but I know that everything would be all right (and even dying would be pretty great because I knew who I am). The negative people in my room couldn't affect me. Maybe I even lifted them up a bit by pointing out the positive in the situation and there was ALWAYS something positive to find. I had fun with my room mates and with the nurses and even joked around with the anesthesia doctor a few minutes before I passed out. I'm so grateful for every time I walk without much pain, for every time I can go to the toilet on my own, for every time I laugh and it hurts a little less than yesterday. I even had 5 nice manifestations while I have been in the hospital. And my friends were so nice to me. They brought me food and one of my gf carried all my stuff to my home today because I'm not allowed to lift more than 4 kg. Isn't that all beautiful?

The point I want to make is: Your alignment is completely independent of your circumstances. How you feel is your choice every second of the day and now I'm living proof of that.
I'm going back to bed now..lol.