So, I have a interesting dilemma, maybe it's not a dilemma, rather I just don't know. I have these 2 wonderful men, both exs actually. One was the recent ex that I was trying to attract back when I joined this forum. But then Recently within the last month, I have become really happy. I am doing so well. I feel good. I can't remember last time I felt like this, no emotional stress or heartache. I'm a young independent woman, doing my own thing. And loving my life.

But I would like one a wonderful men to accompany me in my wonderful, happy life. An old ex recently appeared in my life and has made so much improvement and I am so proud of him. And after communication and catching up, I see he is becoming a person I could see myself being happy with. Which I never thought would come from him. I realized that came from my visualizations and work put into LOA. It was unexpected, but surprisingly nice. (When I was trying very hard to attract my recent ex back, I did a lot of releasing work with my old ex to make sure all that past was cleared. I felt nothing for him anymore, I really wanted my recent ex back.) so that's why it's surprising to me he's come around in my life again, because he's not the one I thought I wanted.

But when I try to visualize things with him to keep creating this new idea of rekindling things with this old ex, my more recent ex comes up in my mind and I can't seem to focus on one or the other. And it's not like I don't want the recent ex to be there- it's like he's shows up because my mind cant decide if I want this wonderful life and wonderful qualities with the old or new ex. Lol. My subconscious is conflicted and can't figure out which one to invest my energy into. I get hints from the universe all day for both of them. Like for example today I was deliberately trying to visualize something with my old ex because he has reached out to me and it's been fun and I've liked it. and then my recent ex and I's song came on.  (And ever since it became "our song" and I heard it, it was my sign from the universe he was either thinking about me or sending me some energy. it's what we decided when we were together and those are the vibes I pick up from hearing his song, even before our breakup.) It didn't make me feel sad or anything, I was more just frustrated. They both have great things about them, and other things that they are working on. It's like they both are comin around at the same time and becoming the person I know I deserve.


I am content without either of them. I live a blessed life and I try my hardest to just be in the moment with my happy life. But I do know there is so much more out there for me, that's why I love visualizing all the wonderful things I see coming for me, including a wonderful partner.

I decided to just write down exactly what I want out of a partner, but then when it comes to visualizing it, I get a bit stuck because I don't know who to picture. I'm not worried about getting them back, I have full confidence that I can do that and Include all the things I expect from them- and that surety and confidence came from getting happy with just me and being happy without anyone either.

I'm a bit stuck and it creates small amounts of frustration because visualizing is usually so peaceful for me, but it's become not a place of peace because I get stuck at the part where I don't know who to picture.

It doesn't really feel like I'm missing either one of them, it feels more like i see a great life with one one day and then the next day, I could see the other one.


Hope that makes sense...

Would love to hear everyone's thoughts