Hi everyone. 

Last night I admit I was having doubts about if I truly loved my love whom I am attracting back as I have not seen signs, they appear to still be seeing someone else, nothing seemed as though it was moving forward for me. 

This got me thinking, is nothing happening due to me not actually being in love with this person 100%. I realised I have never truly known what it feels like to love anyone or anything. I know this sounds strange but throughtout my life I have always just loved myself, some may even go as far to say narcissistic. I always put my wants, needs and happiness above everything and anyone. 90%of the time I was selfish. Even with my love. 

So I got on the internet and started searching for hours. And I mean hours. 

I found a lot of information on pure, unconditional love. This made me realize that I am still being this selfish, "narcissistic" person I have always been. 

I realized that the person I am attracting back, my love, is the one. I found in myself that I truly love her with all my heart.

Once I read up on unconditional love and how you give this without any demand for anything in return, my fears vanished. It felt as though a ton weight had been lifted off me. (read my other post from today that happened last night)

This has made me realize, I love her, no matter where she is, what she is doing, who she is with and all this actually made me happy. 

I woke up today without any knots in my stomach, no feeling down, just the knowing that I truly purely Love her regardless of the situation. 

This is now even from just this morning helping me "let go" more then I ever have. Knowing in myself just how much I love this person is giving me the strength to continue on my journey and makes me happy. 

I am starting to think that because I now know how much I love her and it does not matter whats happening right now, I am  detaching now, not thinking anything needy or desperate with just knowing my love for her is pure and unconditional. I give her all my love through my mind and heart and do not ask for anything in return.  

Any comments are welcome. I admit I find it hard to explain myself sometime lol.