Hey loves!! I have a few general questions, but mainly I think I'm just venting or looking for opinions or something.

This weekend i spent a fantastic day in the city with an ex boyfriend of mine. Not the one I have been currently trying to attract, but nevertheless it is amazing hanging out with him, spending time with him & talking to him, pretty much being friends daily, because I spent a whole year trying to "attract him back" 3 years ago, until I had met my most recent ex instead. After my recent ex & I broke up, that one finally came back. & Its been awesome!! With him, I am just going with the flow, and grateful to have him back around & having fun with him. We agreed to be friends, but when we spent the day in the city he kept kissing me & hugging me. It honestly felt great and I loved the entire day, and/but to be honest..it has left me thinking about him a ton & I missed him as soon as we went home! Realizing this though, there's other things that got me thinking as well. While I was with him, I was still thinking about the ex I have been currently trying to attract, I still missed and wanted that one. But in a way I want them both. I hear a lot of people say, it's not the person you want, it's the feeling, but that has never sat well with me and I actually think I disagree to an extent. I thought about that for a few while I was with him, that both people are so different, & I love things about both of them so differently... I have kissed another guy while I have been single, I have hung out with others... None of them do it for me like these 2 exes of mine...atleast so far, because I am open to meeting new guys if they come along. I can't explain it that well, I just know that it's not really about the feelings that those 2 provide for me, but really about them as individuals, & how intriguing and mysterious they both are in their own separate & vastly different ways, both of their interests, the things that I did with both of them. Their personalities, the things we both enjoy doing together at the times that I we with both of them. SO different though is my point..they were completely different relationships..and I loved them both very very much...but it's sorta like when I was with the one ex I missed the other, but when I was with the other in a relationship I missed the other one as well!!! Lol. I always said...I wish I could have them both at the same time haha. So anyway, this just made me all feel like..I don't even know what I want. & then what do you do then? When you don't know WHO you want? When there's multiple people you want? When you still question if there could be new people out there even better? And then what if you want to meet someone better, and be with them, but you still want your exes in your lives too? I would be really excited if I could have them both, atleast as friends, like forever lol. When this ex I hung out with this weekend came back around, I made an intention for my most recent ex to come back as my lover, but for the other ex to stay around as my friend too. Sheesh... So crazy I guess, but it would make me happy & always was what I wanted. What should you do or intend for when you're that confused and don't know who or what you really want?


The second venting I wanna do is, simply put..from following everybody on here & all of the posts every days & everybodys stories in progress..(and I say this while still being VERY happy for all of you guys, I promise!) Why has everyone heard from the person they've been trying to attract, but me? I'm pretty sure that at this time, I am pretty much the only person other than maybe one other person on here, that has not manifested a single contact from their person, since the break up. I have manifested him waving, and that is it, in four months since the last time we spoke. I don't even get any signs of him manifesting back towards me. When I say nothing, I mean it! Everyone else has atleast manifested a text or bumping into them or a request or some other form of contact. I have seen him across the street at his mothers, or driving in the car, but I have not heard from him or talked to him in any way, and the craziest part is I don't even get signs that what I want is working. When I tried to attract my ex from a few years ago that I was just talking about, there were signs everywhere!!!! Our date, other numbers that pertained to us & our relationship, symbols that we used, things we said and did....pretty much signs were there daily that atleast the universe heard me that I wanted him! And I was still talking to him as well, even though I wasn't seeing him or hanging out with him. He would text or say something on social media weekly though for months, until I got with my new guy & even then he'd pop up every now & then online liking something of mine or saying hi. Why is that not going on with the one I'm trying to attract now? I know I do out heavy emphasis on his current relationship & feel anger that he is engaged so quickly..so that could be it..but I guess what I don't understand is why I'm not even seeing signs that my request was heard to atleast talk to him, for him to contact me, & for it to be positive & happy & out of goodness & love! I do see his name a lot, but that's really it. So for everyone who has manifested contact, and has manifested the words they want to hear, and etc etc etc..what am I doing wrong that you guys are doing right lol?!!! There has been zero movement since last speaking to him in January! Even though I so easily manifested him getting with this girl & getting engaged, which I still have a difficult time believing I manifested his engagement to her, even though I can see me manifesting him being with her. It's just I swear that for the two years we were together, I never saw him ever being the person to leave me for another girl. I honestly believed he would be the one asking me to marry him & I always believed this. If anything I never ever thought that he would leave me to be with someone else or get with someone else that fast & not look back at me or us after! If I manifested that, I did it very quickly with a ton of momentum, because atleast while we were together I didn't see that being an option. I really knew and felt that he loved only me. It's been the most confusing experience with a person ever to me. I don't get where me & him went wrong, & he gave no chance for us to fix it, as he left very quickly & relationship hopped even more quickly!


On the powerlawofattraction forum Superman made a post that said that you can have whatever you desire, you just can't choose WHO gives it to you. So like if you want a red Mitsubishi Galant with a specific make & year & model, you can get it, you just can't ask for it from a specific guy named Charlie. If you want some cookies, you ask for cookies & you'll get them, but you don't get to choose who brings you or bakes you the cookies. I find that thought to be pretty accurate to me...I've always gotten the objects I requested, but they never came from where I asked from, but then again I don't think I ever asked for an object from specific people. I just feel that when it comes to the specific person topic, I haven't had too much luck with what I want of them. There have even been times I definitely thought someone would do something specific, like we'd make plans & I definitely thought it would go a certain way for sure, & they'd do the complete opposite or something different than what I expected. Or id expect someone to treat me a specific way and they'd be different from that. Then there's also other times they're actually on point with how I expect or think a friend of mine will do or be, so it's really strange, what's the formula?! But I do actually believe you can have what and who you want...I've seen it with others, and with you guys..i just haven't figured out how to get it to work for me!


I dunno guys..I had a really great weekend with my ex & other friends, had so much fun with them all, but I'm feeling lonely & just wanted to vent...honestly I think it's because my Facebook newsfeed is filled with constant engagements and weddings and other couply things, people having kids, or posting of their kids, or if they're single they're friends who are traveling, posting all the things they're doing with large groups of people, & I AM having so much fun & I'm out always, but something is just missing..I miss loving someone, and having that special man to do fun & special things with....or even having really good girl friends who have the same interests and like to go on walks or hikes or adventures, go to museums, artsy stuff, go into the city, go to the movies and whatever else I enjoy doing...I don't have many good girl friends who are into the same stuff as me..and most of my friends have boyfriends and kids so they can't hang out a lot. How do I manifest like minded friends who have the same interests & who I can call up and they actually care about stuff I have to say? Through out my whole break up process only a handful have been there to hear about it and let me vent about it..I'm very grateful for them, but I've also had to hold a lot in & I don't think I've vented & let enough feelings out about him and out break up to be able to process it and the emotions healthily and effectively. Guys have only pretended to care to tell me to move on and with them. Not too many females have asked me about him, or let me vent to them. Only a few have genuinely cared and asked about it, even right after he left! I only had one person even come to me like he got engaged, wtf?! Everyone else I told, & they did care, but not too many ever asked me how I felt after the fact. Again only a handful. Don't get me wrong, I have been blessed with very wonderful people who have helped me greatly after my break up, but I want to manifest more genuinely kind hearted and like minded friends who I can call up anytime like let's go here or let's do this or guess what so and so did and they'll be there or want to hear and want to go out and have fun and do things. I feel like I can manifest male friends just fine..I want to manifest good loving & caring & positive female friends.

So fellow creators..opinions & help lol??!!