Hello lovely forum

Just wanted to share my success, because I've had so much and feel so good, its ridiculous ;) No, my love and I are not back together, actually quite the opposite, but in the best ways. I'm seeing other people, not regularly, not eagerly, I just do what feels good. If I want to go out with someone, I will and if I don't, I won't. I'm not seeing other people because I "feel" thats the right thing or I "feel" thats what I need to do to get my love back. No. I started seeing other people when I was ready.

I realized all success comes in doing ONLY what makes you happy. Sound silly and simple, but thats cuz it is simple. Haha. Not putting myself in situations where I could potentially get hurt, etc. Making this decision really helps me to LIVE CONSCIOUSLY. It really helped me figure out what I enjoy doing and what actually makes me happy. Unlike before when only conditional things were making me happy.

Next, I had a dream last night that I told someone "I think I've outgrown him", talking about my love. I woke up this morning and thought on that a little bit because initially it freaked me out. But then I realized, my subconscious or dreams or whatever was exactly right. I listen to Abe every moment of the day I can because I feel so good from it and  I realized less and less of the videos I look for have to do with love and my relationship. I realized I do less and less of PW and RS on him and more on other friendships, etc. I only do it on him when I want and when it makes me feel good. But I don't force it or only do it because I think thats the only way to get him back. I realized there is nothing specific to be done, theres no checklist. I see so many people on here saying "oh if i don't do this or if i do this at this time will it reverse it, etc etc." No, it doesn't work that way. You could do any method, anything you want, you could do no methods at all and still get your love back as long as YOU FEEL GOOD. thats it. 

Anyways, I realized I have come SO FAR, and grown SO MUCH in only 2 months since my breakup. I literally healed myself thanks to this forum and Abe and everything else. I realized that I live my life now with confidence and that Im so awesome and thats exactly why he isn't the first thought of my mind anymore. It literally hit me like a brick wall today how awesome I feel ALL THE TIME. and best part about it is, its effortless..

I realized I've made so much progress and he hasn't. I realized today I don't want someone back who isn't on my level or in the vortex either. I don't want anyone to end this happiness I am feeling, so I actually don't need him to come back. Its the weirdest feeling haha. Kind of bittersweet. But also how empowering.

My love/desire doesn't have the same eagerness because I realized the eagerness I was looking for came from wanting myself back, not my love. Yes, I still love him. and yes, I honestly do think we could have an amazing relationship someday and I am excited and expectant for that day. But NOT until he is ready! Not until he is in the vortex with me. I am way to worthy and deserving!

So i've decided to start focusing on him being better when i do visualization sessions with him. Not for us to get back together, but genuinely for his own benefit. I used to see he was struggling a little bit and think "haha that sucks, he's hurting" almost because it made me feel better because I was hurting so badly too. But now its like I see him trying to cover up this hurt and how much he has regressed and I honestly just want to help him for him, not for us. Ultimately I think it will benefit us nicely, but now that I've seen exactly how amazing the vortex is, I want everyone to feel that all the time. 

I'm gonna continue to send him love, but its a different love. I truely think he will feel my good intentions and lack of desperation because I definitely don't want/need him back until he's ready. I just want him to feel better and be better because he's an awesome person, but he doesn't quite know it yet.

Ultimately, what I'm trying to say is, once I took him off the pedestal and put myself on it, everything changed. it wasn't about him anymore, its been about me this whole time. He would just be an added bonus. Its a funny feeling to feel like I've outgrown someone, but it also sets up me up in a great position. A position as a deliberate creator. To know that I am so powerful that I can control not just my happiness, but can make a difference in other people's lives too because of my ability to control my happiness. Learning to live consciously has honestly changed my life.