So within a week my guy is now single again and he said this to me randomly today:

I don't think I could ever be mad at you. Like honestly. You'll always be a special part of my life. No matter how shitty in treat you you're still a part of my life. I feel better. Not where I want to be but better. I just wish you didn't worry about us. You're going to be stuck with me and me with you regardless if we want it haha

I love this I can work with this!