Ever since I discovered this board, Veronica, etc., I've have renowned faith and hope to bring my guy back. Now, he's all I think about. I can see us together, and often visualize us doing no-exciting things, like hanging out with his parents, watching tv, etc. I can see it and can't wait for it to physically happen. 

But now I'm concerned that I'm thinking of him too much. Is that a bad thing? I've done VERY well at keep all negative thoughts, doubts, fear.. you name it, and I've hit it out of my head like a pro-baseball player hitting a ball out of the park. All thoughts of him are positive. But could that be pushing him away? I don't think I'm obsessing about him.. but could I? I'm not longing for him, missing him, or even wondering what he's doing at the very moment. 

Today finally felt like a spring day. It was warm, sunny, and every one was out and about enjoying the nice weather. I found myself sunning on my deck with a good book - something I haven't done in such a long time. But with every couple of pages, my guy kept popping into my head. I had to ask myself, 'WHAT IS GOING ON?". I was focused on something completely different, and yet here's him in my head saying, 'pay attention to me'