So after my 25 day challenge I must admit, there have been great successes. We went out as a family 3 times, we hooked up, he has kisses me in the mouth several times, even agreed that dating was not a bad idea again.

On Friday I got a call from him and quickly realized, he unblocked me...all this time in 57 days(yes I kept record) it's been email, messenger or in person.  As we were talking, the familiar negativity from him came spoilin :  out from his mouth and I had to interrupt him to ask her why is he being so rude and ugly to me on our first phone conversation.  He replied shocked because I hadn't challenged him before and for what it's worth explained I haven't had some one shouting at me in 2 months and liked it so address your contact and tone. He surprisingly acknowledged he was generalizing his anger and he could see how I was shocked and started over from the beginning so I had a clue what was even wrong with him.

As we spoke I realized the reason we broke up was still HIS issue though I moved from it. HE is still in mental turmoil about paying child support for his oldest daughter, not happy at his job, being back at his parents since we broke up and dwelling in past events that he isn't acknowledong are partially his doing to shape his current situation. So talking to me ads a YOU ARE A PROBLEM to feature for me and after dumping my full trust in LOA realized quickly THAT isn't going to be another utterence I'll EVER allow again without a solution.

So when he got to me I finally said to him how I felt...I never stood a fair chance or our kid because your ear with your past and your ex wife always overshadowed you ability to accept my love and it's an insult after all this time you don't acknowledge it.

Guyssssssss, he finally did! He totally did. But it now has put a bit of distance between us. I don't want to dismiss that as a failure, because it's part of my manifestation, but my hope was that once he stopped dragging our experiences with his past down he would sort out the clutter and say,  WE DESERVE A CHANCE.

When we left the conversation he hugged me and told me we would get together today and it's 8:41 pm est and I haven't seen him or heard from him since 2pm.

One of you posted about avoiding being clingy so I'm not so on him, someone mentioned still addressing my life and my priorities and let him come to me, but right at the moment, I have no game plans because I thought we were back to wanting to discover and date each other, but that talk seemed to have changed things, though its a breath of fresh air. I felt it may have made him feel uncomfortable knowing how much HE was to blame, which he said...or if he is embarrassed or may actually realize he has feelings for his ex still or even worse not have them for me after all since admitting to having these collapsible brick walls he threw at me over the years.


Anyway, I'm fighti,g negative thoughts tooth and nail, trying to realign and visualize but it's way harder now since I have a really intense 2 weeks of progress.

Any advise?