Hello forum fam! Sorry for the long post!

So this morning I woke up, completely out of the vortex. Or just feeling weird or somethin.  I have absolutely no idea why, but just every negative thought I could have about my love just came flooding to me. I talked myself down from them, but it's literally been so long since I have had any worry or doubt. Literally lately I've been having the best time, I've been so happy, I had gotten to the point where I am 100% happy without manifestations because I am so grateful for where I am and I realized all the progress I had made and literally have been doing so well!!! I realized I manifest everything and anything I wanted & just decided that my love will come when it's time. I felt like I've been doing everything exactly as I should. I went to bad last night feeling so good & I decided to try to visualize him texting me instead of doing RS or PW, even though I think they are all similar and work similarly, it's just the way we feel.

I read yesterday that if after a while of trying and nothing happens, our love might be resisting. But literally I refuse to believe that! Like just cuz I haven't heard from him doesn't mean the universe isn't doing all the work in the background. So I've been at peace with it. Like so happy and sure of everything working out that I'm not obsessive about listening to Abe every minute of the day like I used to be. Or visualizing all the time, I only do it when I wanna and feel good about it. I don't feel the need to be on the forum every minute because I have gotten to the point where I don't need the constant reassurance all the time and my vibrations are constantly so high that anytime I see the slightest negative thing, I can't even look at it because it doesn't resonate with me.

I haven't seen him at the last few days, which is really out of the ordinary seeing we go to a small university and are on the same sports team. But I just took this as that is a good thing and means the universe is doing big things and getting ready to bring him to me. I've been doing NC, but Better yet, I haven't even felt the need to contact him because I have been so sure he is going to contact me. Until this morning when I had all this weird energy and felt the urge to contact him, but I don't want it to be out of doubt. I just don't know what to make of the weird feelings!

So I guess, I'm just asking thoughts on this? Maybe ways to help align? Or why I feel out of alignment when literally I'd been feeling so good?? I read in an article a while ago I will post later, that when your desire feel ordinary, it's really close to manifesting. And that's exactly how I'd been feeling! So maybe the feelings I'm feeling today aren't me being out of alignment? Maybe it's just really close and the universe is clearing all last doubt I may have? What do you guys think? It's just so weird to me lol!


Thanks guys! <3