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So I've been trying to keep myself in alignment but lately I've been all over the place and feeling very frustrated and discouraged. I'm staying with family after leaving my ex fiancee in September due to domestic violence. I'm planning to move back to the city to return to school in September. I want to get back to the city as soon as possible though so I can work, spend time with my friends and just get back to normal life/a normal routine. I'm working with a career counselor to get funding for school in September so I'll be on a living allowance if it all works out. I'm having a really hard time finding a room in my budget. Everything in my price range seems to be in apartments shared between 3-4 people. I don't want that. It's going to be hard enough for me to share an apartment with 1 other person as I'm pretty shy and just like to be alone. I'm feeling like I'm never going to find anything and I know this is contributing to the difficulty of it all. What can I do? I've been looking through the classified ads every day, multiple times. Should I take a break? Am I forcing this and pushing it away? I just want so badly to get back to the city and feel normal again. If I leave it alone for a while and focus on getting myself into alignment will something maybe pop up? How can I relax about this? I've been trying to practice mindfulness, listening to my meditation audio, listening to Abe and asking my angels for help. I am trying to get my thinking back on track but I can't relax and shake the feeling of desperation and discouragement. Help!
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Don't worry so much if you can, I think yes sometimes when you're 'doing too much' it puts out a vibe of needing and desperation.
It can start to feel like loa is effort or your new full time job! Which can be great! But if you're not feeling good while doing it it's not going to be as powerful
I'd say take a breath, take a step back, know the universe is going to look after you - then it will.
Try to do things every day you love and enjoy, doesn't have to be loa or meditation based, literally anything you love to do, that's you really loving yourself and putting an amazing vibe out to the world that then has to be reflected back.
The most important thing is that you feel good and don't beat yourself up for feeling bad.
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Thanks rosetinted! Over the last couple of weeks I've felt myself feeling off and I don't like it. I'm giving the apartment searching a rest for a while, I need to chill and get myself back to positivity. I am feeling too needy and desperate but it's like one bad day or situation sets it off and it gets out of control and I just feel worse. I need to give this stuff a rest and focus on enjoying my family and friends for now. I'll keep telling myself things will work out, I'll get back to where I want to be soon.
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Natasha wrote:
Thanks rosetinted! Over the last couple of weeks I've felt myself feeling off and I don't like it. I'm giving the apartment searching a rest for a while, I need to chill and get myself back to positivity. I am feeling too needy and desperate but it's like one bad day or situation sets it off and it gets out of control and I just feel worse. I need to give this stuff a rest and focus on enjoying my family and friends for now. I'll keep telling myself things will work out, I'll get back to where I want to be soon.
I totally understand! One bad thing or set back and I think ugh! Come on! Can't things just keep going right? I think it's about riding the waves of life and being comfortable (as you possibly can be) with the beauty in the certainty of uncertainty. I think focusing on family and friends and most importantly yourself! - is the best best thing you can do right now! And as soon as you let go and relax, I'm sure something wonderful will happen for you
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Natasha wrote:
So I've been trying to keep myself in alignment but lately I've been all over the place and feeling very frustrated and discouraged. I'm staying with family after leaving my ex fiancee in September due to domestic violence. I'm planning to move back to the city to return to school in September. I want to get back to the city as soon as possible though so I can work, spend time with my friends and just get back to normal life/a normal routine. I'm working with a career counselor to get funding for school in September so I'll be on a living allowance if it all works out. I'm having a really hard time finding a room in my budget. Everything in my price range seems to be in apartments shared between 3-4 people. I don't want that. It's going to be hard enough for me to share an apartment with 1 other person as I'm pretty shy and just like to be alone. I'm feeling like I'm never going to find anything and I know this is contributing to the difficulty of it all. What can I do? I've been looking through the classified ads every day, multiple times. Should I take a break? Am I forcing this and pushing it away? I just want so badly to get back to the city and feel normal again. If I leave it alone for a while and focus on getting myself into alignment will something maybe pop up? How can I relax about this? I've been trying to practice mindfulness, listening to my meditation audio, listening to Abe and asking my angels for help. I am trying to get my thinking back on track but I can't relax and shake the feeling of desperation and discouragement. Help!
Sit back. Take a break. Any action you take now will be out of panic, desperation, or stress. Just know that the right place will pop up when you least expect it and while you shift your focus on something else. Honestly, whenever I focus on other things, the things that I want more than anything just pop up. When I focus too intently on the things I desire, they never quite manifest.
You really can have anything you desire in life. You just have to find ways to get rid of all doubt, fear, and worry and replace those with confidence and faith. LOA works. But only if you believe it works and only if you believe that you are responsible for everything brought into or out of your life.
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Thanks guys, I appreciate it! I'm feeling more relaxed about things today. I'm trying my hardest to keep myself occupied by other things. I have some family things coming up this week so I'm thinking spending time with my parents and some friends will help me to feel positive again and I can keep building momentum. ForgetYourEvil, I know you're right, that I create my own reality. That's what makes getting into funks like these so frustrating. I know I'm going to bring more of it to me. However, I do try to pivot and turn to better feeling activities and thoughts. Sometimes it's just difficult getting the good thoughts to stick. I'm going to give myself a break from this until the feelings of desperation deminish. Thanks again!
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Firstly, congratulations for leaving an abusive relationship. That takes strength and a lot of determination. Truly, as hard as it can be, I have learnt that just STOPPING.. and breathing and regrouping and focussing on other easier topics will bring you back to neutral. And then you can gather some positive momentum again. Digging your heels in will create more issues, and it's unnecessary. We have ALL done it, including myself.. But the magic truly happens when you let go and trust that it will. Get off the topic entirely and focus on what it is like to be free from suffering. Free from abuse and anguish. Feel the relief of that. Let it wash over you and know that your life is starting anew, and that the entire universe is ready to do everything on your behalf. You need only make a small effort to feel better right now. Much love to you π